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[Illustration: "’WHAT A BEAUTIFUL DREAM!’" (See page 187)]




                                 IN THE
                              MORNING GLOW

                             SHORT STORIES


                                   By

                            ROY ROLFE GILSON

                               AUTHOR OF
                 "Miss Primrose" "The Flower of Youth"
                               Etc. Etc.



                              ILLUSTRATED



                                NEW YORK
                            GROSSET & DUNLAP
                               PUBLISHERS

            Published by arrangement with Harper & Brothers




                 Copyright, 1902, by HARPER & BROTHERS.

                         _All rights reserved._

                        Published October, 1902.




                                   TO
                                MY WIFE




                               *Contents*


GRANDFATHER

GRANDMOTHER

WHILE AUNT JANE PLAYED

LITTLE SISTER

OUR YARD

THE TOY GRENADIER

FATHER

MOTHER




                            *Illustrations*


"’WHAT A BEAUTIFUL DREAM!’" . . . . . . _Frontispiece_

"WHEN GRANDFATHER WORE HIS WHITE VEST YOU WALKED LIKE OTHER FOLKS"

"YOU STOLE SOFTLY TO HIS SIDE"

"WATCHED HIM MAKE THE BLUE FRAGMENTS INTO THE BLUE PITCHER AGAIN"

"THE SAIL-BOATS HE WHITTLED FOR YOU ON RAINY DAYS"

"YOU CLUNG TO HER APRON FOR SUPPORT IN YOUR MUTE AGONY"

"YOU WATCHED THEM AS THEY WENT DOWN THE WALK TOGETHER"

"TO AND FRO GRANDMOTHER ROCKED YOU"

"YOU SAID ’NOW I LAY ME’ IN UNISON"

"MOTHER TUCKED YOU BOTH INTO BED AND KISSED YOU"

"THEY TOOK YOU AS FAR AS THE BEDROOM DOOR TO SEE HER"

"’BAD DREAM, WAS IT, LITTLE CHAP?’"

"’FATHER, WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU DON’T SAY ANYTHING, BUT JUST
LOOK?’"

"’MOTHER,’ YOU SAID, SOFTLY"

"THE PICTURE-BOOK"

"BEFORE YOU WENT TO BED"




                             *Grandfather*


When you gave Grandfather both your hands and put one foot against his
knee and the other against his vest, you could walk right up to his
white beard like a fly—but you had to hold tight. Sometimes your foot
slipped on the knee, but the vest was wider and not so hard, so that
when you were that far you were safe.  And when you had both feet in the
soft middle of the vest, and your body was stiff, and your face was
looking right up at the ceiling, Grandfather groaned down deep inside,
and that was the sign that your walk was ended.  Then Grandfather
crumpled you up in his arms.  But on Sunday, when Grandfather wore his
white vest, you walked like other folks.

[Illustration: "WHEN GRANDFATHER WORE HIS WHITE VEST YOU WALKED LIKE
OTHER FOLKS"]

In the morning Grandfather sat in the sun by the wall—the stone wall at
the back of the garden, where the golden-rod grew.  Grandfather read the
paper and smoked.  When it was afternoon and Mother was taking her nap,
Grandfather was around the corner of the house, on the porch, in the
sun—always in the sun, for the sun followed Grandfather wherever he
went, till he passed into the house at supper-time.  Then the sun went
down and it was night.

Grandfather walked with a cane; but even then, with all the three legs
he boasted of, you could run the meadow to the big rock before
Grandfather had gone half-way.  Grandfather’s pipe was corn-cob, and
every week he had a new one, for the little brown juice that cuddled
down in the bottom of the bowl, and wouldn’t come out without a straw,
wasn’t good for folks, Grandfather said.  Old Man Stubbs, who came
across the road to see Grandfather, chewed his tobacco, yet the little
brown juice did not hurt him at all, he said.  Still it was not pleasant
to kiss Old Man Stubbs, and Mother said that chewing tobacco was a
filthy habit, and that only very old men ever did it nowadays, because
lots of people used to do it when Grandfather and Old Man Stubbs were
little boys.  Probably, you thought, people did not kiss other folks so
often then.

One morning Grandfather was reading by the wall, in the sun.  You were
on the ground, flat, peeping under the grass, and you were so still that
a cricket came and teetered on a grass-stalk near at hand. Two red ants
climbed your hat as it lay beside you, and a white worm swung itself
from one grass-blade to another, like a monkey.  The ground under the
apple-trees was broken out with sun-spots. Bees were humming in the red
clover. Butterflies lazily flapped their wings and sailed like little
boats in a sea of goldenrod and Queen Anne’s lace.

"Dee, dee-dee, dee-dee," you sang, and Mr. Cricket sneaked under a
plantain leaf.  You tracked him to his lair with your finger, and he
scuttled away.

"Grandfather."

No reply.

"_Grand_father."

Not a word.  Then you looked.  Grandfather’s paper had slipped to the
ground, and his glasses to his lap.  He was fast asleep in the sunshine
with his head upon his breast.  You stole softly to his side With a long
grass you tickled his ear. With a jump he awoke, and you tumbled,
laughing, on the grass.

[Illustration: "YOU STOLE SOFTLY TO HIS SIDE"]

"Ain’t you ’shamed?" cried Lizzie-in-the-kitchen, who was hanging out
the clothes.

"Huh!  Grandfather don’t care."

Grandfather never cared.  That is one of the things which made him
Grandfather. If he had scolded he might have been Father, or even Uncle
Ned—but he would not have been Grandfather.  So when you spoiled his nap
he only said, "H’m," deep in his beard, put on his glasses, and read his
paper again.

When it was afternoon, and the sun followed Grandfather to the porch,
and you were tired of playing House, or Hop-Toad, or Indian, or the
Three Bears, it was only a step from Grandfather’s foot to Grandfather’s
lap.  When you sat back and curled your legs, your head lay in the
hollow of Grandfather’s shoulder, in the shadow of his white beard.
Then Grandfather would say,

"Once upon a time there was a bear..."

Or, better still,

"Once, when I was a little boy..."

Or, best of all,

"When Grandfather went to the war..."

That was the story where Grandfather lay all day in the tall grass
watching for Johnny Reb, and Johnny Reb was watching for Grandfather.
When it came to the exciting part, you sat straight up to see
Grandfather squint one eye and look along his outstretched arm, as
though it were his gun, and say, "Bang!"

But Johnny Reb saw the tip of Grandfather’s blue cap just peeping over
the tops of the tall grass, and so he, too, went "Bang!"

And ever afterwards Grandfather walked with a cane.

"Did Johnny Reb have to walk with a cane, too, Grandfather?"

"Johnny Reb, he just lay in the tall grass, all doubled up, and says he,
’Gimme a chaw o’ terbaccer afore I die.’"

"Did you give it to him, Grandfather?"

"He died ’fore I could get the plug out o’ my pocket."

Then Mother would say:

"I wouldn’t, Father—such stories to a child!"

Then Grandfather would smoke grimly, and would not tell you any more,
and you would play Grandfather and Johnny Reb in the tall grass.
Lizzie-in-the-kitchen would give you a piece of brown-bread for the chaw
of tobacco, and when Johnny Reb died too soon you ate it yourself, to
save it.  You wondered what would have happened if Johnny Reb had not
died too soon.  Standing over Johnny Reb’s prostrate but still animate
form in the tall grass, with the brown-bread tobacco in your hand, you
even contemplated playing that your adversary lived to tell the tale,
but the awful thought that in that case you would have to give up the
chaw (the brown-bread was fresh that day) kept you to the letter of
Grandfather’s story.  Once only did you play that Johnny Reb lived—but
the brown-bread was hard that day, and you were not hungry.

Grandfather wore the blue, and on his breast were the star and flag of
the Grand Army.  Every May he straightened his bent shoulders and
marched to the music of fife and drum to the cemetery on the hill.  So
once a year there were tears in Grandfather’s eyes.  All the rest of
that solemn May day he marched in the garden with his hands behind him,
and a far-away look in his eyes, and once in a while his steps quickened
as he hummed to himself,

    "Tramp, tramp, tramp, the boys are marching."

And if it so happened that he told you the story of Johnny Reb that day,
he would always have a new ending:

"Then we went into battle.  The Rebs were on a tarnal big hill, and as
we charged up the side, ’Boys,’ says the Colonel—’boys, give ’em hell!’
says he.  And, sir, we just did, I tell you."

"Oh Father, Father—_don’t!_—such language before the child!" Mother
would cry, and that would be the end of the new end of Grandfather’s
story.

On a soap-box in Abe Jones’s corner grocery, Grandfather argued politics
with Old Man Stubbs and the rest of the boys.

"I’ve voted the straight Republican ticket all my life," he would say,
proudly, when the fray was at its height, "and, by George!  I’ll not
make a darned old fool o’ myself by turning coat now.  Pesky few
Democrats ever I see who—"

Here Old Man Stubbs would rise from the cracker-barrel.

"If I understand you correctly, sir, you have called me a darned old
fool."

"Not at all, Stubbs," Grandfather would reply, soothingly.  "Not by a
jugful.  Now you’re a Democrat—"

"And proud of it, sir," Old Man Stubbs would break in.

"You’re a Democrat, Stubbs, and as such you are not responsible; but if
I was to turn Democrat, Stubbs, I’d be a darned old fool."

And in the roar that followed, Old Man Stubbs would subside to the
cracker-barrel and smoke furiously.  Then Grandfather would say:

"Stubbs, do you remember old Mose Gray?"  That was to clear the
battle-field of the political carnage, so to speak—so that Old Man
Stubbs would forget his grievance and walk home with Grandfather
peaceably when the grocery closed for the night.

If it was winter-time, and the snowdrifts were too deep for grandfathers
and little boys, you sat before the fireplace, Grandfather in his
arm-chair, you flat on the rug, your face between your hands, gazing
into the flames.

"Who was the greatest man that ever lived, Grandfather?"

"Jesus of Nazareth, boy."

"And who was the greatest soldier?"

"Ulysses S. Grant."

"And the next greatest?"

"George Washington."

"But Old Man Stubbs says Napoleon was the greatest soldier."

"Old Man Stubbs?  Old Man Stubbs? What does he know about it, I’d like
to know?  He wasn’t in the war.  He’s afraid of his own shadder.  U. S.
Grant was the greatest general that ever lived. I guess I know.  I was
there, wasn’t I? Napoleon!  Old Man Stubbs!  Fiddlesticks!"

And Grandfather would sink back into his chair, smoking wrath and weed
in his trembling corn-cob, and scowling at the blazing fagots and the
curling hickory smoke.  By-and-by—

"Who was the greatest woman that ever lived, Grandfather?"

"Your mother, boy."

"Oh, Father"—it was Mother’s voice—"you forget."

"Forget nothing," cried Grandfather, fiercely.  "Boy, your mother is the
best woman that ever lived, and mind you remember it, too.  Every boy’s
mother is the best woman that ever lived."

And when Grandfather leaned forward in his chair and waved his pipe,
there was no denying Grandfather.

At night, after supper, when your clothes were in a little heap on the
chair, and you had your nighty on, and you had said your prayers, Mother
tucked you in bed and kissed you and called Grandfather.  Then
Grandfather came stumping up the stairs with his cane.  Sitting on the
edge of your bed, he sang to you,

    "The wild gazelle with the silvery feet
    I’ll give thee for a playmate sweet."


And after Grandfather went away the wild gazelle came and stood beside
you, and put his cold little nose against your cheek, and licked your
face with his tongue. It was rough at first, but by-and-by it got softer
and softer, till you woke up and wanted a drink, and found beside you,
in place of the wild gazelle, a white mother with a brimming cup in her
hand.  She covered you up when you were through, and kissed you, and
then you went looking for the wild gazelle, and sometimes you found him;
but sometimes, when you had just caught up to him and his silvery feet
were shining like stars, he turned into Grandfather with his cane.

"Hi, sleepy-head!  The dicky-birds are waitin’ for you."

And then Grandfather would tickle you in the ribs, and help you on with
your stockings, till it was time for him to sit by the wall in the sun.

When you were naughty, and Mother used the little brown switch that hung
over the wood-shed door, Grandfather tramped up and down in the garden,
and the harder you hollered, the harder Grandfather tramped.  Once when
you played the empty flower-pots were not flower-pots at all, but just
cannon-balls, and you killed a million Indians with them, Mother showed
you the pieces, and the switch descended, and the tears fell, and
Grandfather tramped and tramped, and lost the garden-path completely,
and stepped on the pansies.  Then they shut you up in your own room
up-stairs, and you cried till the hiccups came.  You heard the dishes
rattling on the dining-room table below.  They would be eating supper
soon, and at one end of the table in a silver dish there would be a
chocolate cake, for Lizzie-in-the-kitchen had baked one that afternoon.
You had seen it in the pantry window with your own eyes, while you fired
the flower-pots.  Now chocolate cake was your favorite, so you hated
your bread-and-milk, and tasted and wailed defiantly.  Now and then you
listened to hear if they pitied and came to you, but they came not, and
you moaned and sobbed in the twilight, and hoped you would die, to make
them sorry. By-and-by, between the hiccups, you heard the door open
softly.  Then Grandfather’s hand came through the crack with a piece of
chocolate cake in it.  You knew it was Grandfather’s hand, because it
was all knuckly.  So you cried no more, and while the chocolate cake was
stopping the hiccups, you heard Grandfather steal down the stairs,
softly—but it did not sound like Grandfather at all, for you did not
hear the stumping of his cane. Next morning, when you asked him about
it, his vest shook, and just the tip of his tongue showed between his
teeth, for that was the way it did when anything pleased him.  And
Grandfather said:

"You won’t ever tell?"

"No, Grandfather."

"Sure as shootin’?"

"Yes."

"Well, then—" but Grandfather kept shaking so he could not tell.

"Oh, Grandfather!  _Why_ didn’t the cane sound on the stairs?"

"Whisht, boy!  I just wrapped my old bandanna handkerchief around the
end."

But worse than that time was the awful morning when you broke the blue
pitcher that came over in the _Mayflower_.  An old family law said you
should never even touch it, where it sat on the shelf by the clock, but
the Old Nick said it wouldn’t hurt if you looked inside—just once. You
had been munching bread-and-butter, and your fingers were slippery, and
that is how the pitcher came to fall. Grandfather found you sobbing over
the pieces, and his face was white.

"Sonny, Sonny, what have you done?"

"I—I d-didn’t mean to, Grandfather."

In trembling fingers Grandfather gathered up the blue fragments—all that
was left of the family heirloom, emblem of Mother’s ancestral pride.

"’Sh!  Don’t cry, Sonny.  We’ll make it all right again."

"M-Moth—Mother ’ll whip me."

"’Sh, boy.  No, she won’t.  We’ll take it to the tinker.  He’ll make it
all right again.  Come."

And you and Grandfather slunk guiltily to the tinker and watched him
make the blue fragments into the blue pitcher again, and then you
carried it home, and as Grandfather set it back on the shelf you
whispered:

[Illustration: "WATCHED HIM MAKE THE BLUE FRAGMENTS INTO THE BLUE
PITCHER AGAIN"]

"Grandfather!"

Grandfather bent his ear to you.  Very softly you said it:

"Grandfather, the cracks don’t show at all from here."

Grandfather nodded his head.  Then he tramped up and down in the garden.
He forgot to smoke.  Crime weighed upon his soul.

"Boy," said he, sternly, stopping in his walk.  "You must never be
naughty again.  Do you hear me?"

"I won’t, Grandfather."

Grandfather resumed his tramping; then paused and turned to where you
sat on the wheelbarrow.

"But if you ever _are_ naughty again, you must go at once and tell
Mother.  Do you understand?"

"Yes, Grandfather."

Up and down Grandfather tramped moodily, his head bent, his hands
clasped behind him—up and down between the verbenas and hollyhocks.  He
paused irresolutely—turned—turned again—and came back to you.

"Boy, Grandfather’s just as bad and wicked as you are.  He ought to have
made you tell Mother about the pitcher first, and take it to the tinker
afterwards. You must never keep anything from your mother again—never.
Do you hear?"

"Yes, Grandfather," you whimpered, hanging your head.

"Come, boy."

You gave him your hand.  Mother listened, wondering, while Grandfather
spoke out bravely to the very end.  You had been bad, but he had been
worse, he confessed; and he asked to be punished for himself and you.

Mother did not even look at the cracked blue pitcher on the clock-shelf,
but her eyes filled, and at the sight of her tears you flung yourself,
sobbing, into her arms.

"Oh, Mother, don’t whip Grandfather. Just whip me."

"It isn’t the blue pitcher I care about," she said.  "It’s only to think
that Grandfather and my little boy were afraid to tell me."

And at this she broke out crying with your wet cheek against her wet
cheek, and her warm arms crushing you to her breast.  And you cried, and
Grandfather blew his nose, and Carlo barked and leaped to lick your
face, until by-and-by, when Mother’s white handkerchief and
Grandfather’s red one were quite damp, you and Mother smiled through
your tears, and she said it did not matter, and Grandfather patted one
of her hands while you kissed the other.  And you and Grandfather said
you would never be bad again. When you were good, or sick—dear
Grandfather!  It was not what he said, for only Mother could say the
love-words. It was the things he did without saying much at all—the
circus he took you to see, the lessons in A B C while he held the book
for you in his hand, the sail-boats he whittled for you on rainy
days—for Grandfather was a ship-carpenter before he was a
grandfather—and the willow whistles he made for you, and the soldier
swords.  It was Grandfather who fished you from the brook.  Grandfather
saved you from Farmer Tompkins’s cow—the black one which gave no milk.
Grandfather snatched you from prowling dogs, and stinging bees, and bad
boys and their wiles.  That is what grandfathers are for, and so we love
them and climb into their laps and beg for sail-boats and tales—and
_that_ is their reward.

[Illustration: "THE SAIL-BOATS HE WHITTLED FOR YOU ON RAINY DAYS"]

One day—your birthday had just gone by and it was time to think of
Thanksgiving—you walked with Grandfather in the fields.  Between the
stacked corn the yellow pumpkins lay, and they made you think of
Thanksgiving pies.  The leaves, red and gold, dropped of old age in the
autumn stillness, and you gathered an armful for Mother.

"Why don’t all the people die every year, Grandfather, like the leaves?"

"Everybody dies when his work’s done, little boy.  The leaf’s work is
done in the fall when the frost comes.  It takes longer for a man to do
his work, ’cause a man has more to do."

"When will your work be done, Grandfather?"

"It’s almost done now, little boy."

"Oh no, Grandfather.  There’s lots for you to do.  You said you’d make
me a bob-sled, and a truly engine what goes, when I’m bigger; and when I
get to be a grown-up man like Father, you are to come and make willow
whistles for my little boys."

And you were right, for while the frost came again and again for the
little leaves, Grandfather stayed on in the sun, and when he had made
you the bob-sled he still lingered, for did he not have the truly engine
to make for you, and the willow whistles for your own little boys?

Waking from a nap, you could not remember when you fell asleep.  You
wondered what hour it was.  Was it morning? Was it afternoon?  Dreamily
you came down-stairs.  Golden sunlight crossed the ivied porch and
smiled at you through the open door.  The dining-room table was set with
blue china, and at every place was a dish of red, red strawberries.
Then you knew it was almost supper-time. You were rested with sleep,
gentle with dreams of play, happy at the thought of red berries in blue
dishes with sugar and cream.  You found Grandfather in the garden
sitting in the sun.  He was not reading or smoking; he was just waiting.

"Are you tired waiting for me, Grandfather?"

"No, little boy."

"I came as soon as I could, Grandfather."

The leaves did not move.  The flowers were motionless.  Grandfather sat
quite still, his soft, white beard against your cheek, flushed with
sleep.  You nestled in his lap.  And so you sat together, with the sun
going down about you, till Mother came and called you to supper.  Even
now when you are grown, you remember, as though it were yesterday, the
long nap and the golden light in the doorway, and the red berries on the
table, and Grandfather waiting in the sun.

One day—it was not long afterwards—they took you to see Aunt Mary, on
the train.  When you came home again, Grandfather was not waiting for
you.

"Where is Grandfather?"

"Grandfather isn’t here any more, dearie. He has gone ’way up in the sky
to see God and the angels."

"And won’t he ever come back to our house?"

"No, dear; but if you are a good boy, you will go to see him some day."

"But, oh, Mother, what will Grandfather do when he goes to walk with the
little boy angels?  See—he’s gone and forgot his cane!"




                             *Grandmother*


In the days when you went into the country to visit her, Grandmother was
a gay, spry little lady with velvety cheeks and gold-rimmed spectacles,
knitting reins for your hobby-horse, and spreading bread-and-butter and
brown sugar for you in the hungry middle of the afternoon.  For a bumped
head there was nothing in the bottles to compare with the magic of her
lips.

"And what did the floor do to my poor little lamb?  See!  Grandmother
will make the place well again."  And when she had kissed it three
times, lo! you knew that you were hungry, and on the door-sill of
Grandmother’s pantry you shed a final tear.

When you arrived for a visit, and Grandmother had taken off your cap and
coat as you sat in her lap, you would say, softly, "Grandmother."  Then
she would know that you wanted to whisper, and she would lower her ear
till it was even with your lips.  Through the hollow of your two hands
you said it:

"I think I would like some sugar pie now, Grandmother."

And then she would laugh till the tears came, and wipe her spectacles,
for that was just what she had been waiting for you to say all the time,
and if you had not said it—but, of course, that was impossible.  Always,
on the day before you came, she made two little sugar pies in two little
round tins with crinkled edges. One was for you, and the other was for
Lizbeth.

After you had eaten your pies you chased the rooster till he dropped you
a white tail-feather in token of surrender, and just tucking the feather
into your cap made you an Indian.  Grandmother stood at the window and
watched you while you scalped the sunflowers.  The Indians and tigers at
Grandmother’s were wilder than those in Our Yard at home.

Being an Indian made you think of tents, and then you remembered
Grandmother’s old plaid shawl.  She never wore it now, for she had a new
one, but she kept it for you in the closet beneath the stairs.  While
you were gone, it hung in the dark alone, dejected, waiting for you to
come back and play.  When you came, at last, and dragged it forth, it
clung to you warmly, and did everything you said: stretched its frayed
length from chair to chair and became a tent for you; swelled proudly in
the summer gale till your boat scudded through the surf of waving grass,
and you anchored safely, to fish with string and pin, by the Isles of
the Red Geraniums.

"The pirates are coming," you cried to Lizbeth, scanning the horizon of
picket fence.

"The pirates are coming," she repeated, dutifully.

"And now we must haul up the anchor," you commanded, dragging in the
stone. Lizbeth was in terror.  "Oh, my poor dolly!" she cried, hushing
it in her arms. Gallantly the old plaid shawl caught the breeze; and as
it filled, your boat leaped forward through—

"Harry!  Lizbeth!  Come and be washed for dinner!"

Grandmother’s voice came out to you across the waters.  You hesitated.
The pirate ship was close behind.  You could see the cutlasses flashing
in the sun.

"More sugar pies," sang the Grandmother siren on the rocks of the front
porch, and at those melting words the pirate ship was a mere speck on
the horizon.  Seizing Lizbeth by the hand, you ran boldly across the
sea.

By the white bowl Grandmother took your chin in one hand and lifted your
face.

"My, what a dirty boy!"

With the rough wet rag she mopped the dirt away—grime of your long
sea-voyage—while you squinted your eyes and pursed up your lips to keep
out the soap. You clung to her apron for support in your mute agony.

[Illustration: "YOU CLUNG TO HER APRON FOR SUPPORT IN YOUR MUTE AGONY"]

"Grand—" you managed to sputter ere the wet rag smothered you.  Warily
you waited till the cloth went higher, to your puckered eyes.  Then,
"Grand-m-m—"  But that was all, for with a trail of suds the rag swept
down again, and as the half-word slipped out, the soap slipped in.  So
Grandmother dug and dug till she came to the pink stratum of your
cheeks, and then it was wipe, wipe, wipe, till the stratum shone.  Then
it was your hands’ turn, while Grandmother listened to your belated
tale, and last of all she kissed you above and gave you a little spank
below, and you were done.

All through dinner your mind was on the table—not on the middle of it,
where the meat was, but on the end of it.

"Harry, why don’t you eat your bread?"

"Why, I don’t feel for bread, Grandmother," you explained, looking at
the end of the table.  "I just feel for pie."

It was hard when you were back home again, for there it was mostly
bread, and no sugar pies at all, and very little cake.

"Grandmother lets me have _two_ pieces," you would urge to Mother, but
the argument was of no avail.  Two pieces, she said, were not good for
little boys.

"Then why does Grandmother let me have them?" you would demand,
sullenly, kicking the table leg; but Mother could not hear you unless
you kicked hard, and then it was naughty boys, not Grandmothers, that
she talked about.  And if that happened which sometimes does to naughty
little boys—

"Grandmother don’t hurt at all when _she_ spanks," you said.

So there were wrathful moments when you wished you might live always
with Grandmother.  It was so easy to be good at her house—so easy, that
is, to get two pieces of cake.  And when God made little boys, you
thought, He must have made Grandmothers to bake sugar pies for them.

"Suppose you were a little boy like me, Grandmother?" you once said to
her.

"That would be fine," she admitted; "but suppose you were a little
grandmother like me?"

"Well," you replied, with candor, "I think I would rather be like
Grandfather, ’cause he was a soldier, and fought Johnny Reb."

"And if you were a grandfather," Grandmother asked, "what would you do?"

"Why, if I were a grandfather," you said—"why—"

"Well, what would you do?"

"Why, if I were a grandfather," you said, "I should want you to come and
be a grandmother with me."  And Grandmother kissed you for that.

"But I like you best as a little boy," she said.  "Once Grandmother had
a little boy just like you, and he used to climb into her lap and put
his arms around her. Oh, he was a beautiful little boy, and sometimes
Grandmother gets very lonesome without him—till you come, and then it’s
like having him back again. For you’ve got his blue eyes and his brown
hair and his sweet little ways, and Grandmother loves you—once for
yourself and once for him."

"But where is the little boy now, Grandmother?"

"He’s a man now, darling.  He’s your own father."

Every Sunday, Grandmother went to church.  After breakfast there was a
flurry of dressing, with an opening and shutting of doors up-stairs, and
Grandfather would be down-stairs in the kitchen, blacking his Sunday
boots.  On Sunday his beard looked whiter than on other days, but that
was because he seemed so much blacker everywhere else.  He creaked out
to the stable and hitched Peggy to the buggy and led them around to the
front gate.  Then he would snap his big gold watch and go to the bottom
of the stairs and say:

"Maria!  Come!  It’s ten o’clock."

Grandmother’s door would open a slender crack—"Yes, John"—and
Grandfather would creak up and down in his Sunday boots, up and down,
waiting, till there was a rustling on the stairs and Grandmother came
down to him in a glory of black silk.  There was a little frill of white
about her neck, fastened with her gold brooch, and above that her gentle
Sabbath face.  Her face took on a new light when Sunday came, and she
never seemed so near, somehow, as on other days.  There was a look in
her eyes that did not speak of sugar pies or play.  There was a little
pressure of the thin lips and a silence, as though she had no time for
fairy-tales or lullabies.  When she set her little black bonnet on her
gray hair and lifted up her chin to tie the ribbon strings beneath, you
stopped your game to watch, wondering at her awesomeness; and when in
her black-gloved fingers she clasped her worn Bible and stooped and
kissed you good-bye, you never thought of putting your arms around her.
She was too wonderful—this little Sabbath Grandmother—for that.

Through the window you watched them as they went down the walk together
to the front gate, Grandmother and Grandfather, the tips of her gloved
fingers laid in the hollow of his arm.  Solemn was the steady stumping
of his cane.  Solemn was the day.  Even the roosters knew it was Sunday,
somehow, and crowed dismally; and the bells—the church-bells tolling
through the quiet air—made you lonesome and cross with Lizbeth.  Your
collar was very stiff, and your Sunday trousers were very tight, and
there was nothing to do, and you were dreary.

[Illustration: "YOU WATCHED THEM AS THEY WENT DOWN THE WALK TOGETHER"]

After dinner Grandfather went to sleep on the sofa, with a newspaper
over his face.  Then Grandmother took you up into her black silk lap and
read you Bible stories and taught you the Twenty-third Psalm and the
golden text.  And every one of the golden texts meant the same
thing—that little boys should be very good and do as they are told.

Grandmother’s Sunday lap was not so fine as her other ones to lie in.
Her Monday lap, for instance, was soft and gray, and there were no texts
to disturb your reverie.  Then Grandmother would stop her knitting to
pinch your cheek and say, "You don’t love Grandmother."

"Yes, I do."

"How much?"

"More’n tonguecantell.  What is a tonguecantell, Grandmother?"

And while she was telling you she would be poking the tip of her finger
into the soft of your jacket, so that you doubled up suddenly with your
knees to your chin; and while you guarded your ribs a funny spider would
crawl down the back of your neck; and when you chased the spider out of
your collar it would suddenly creep under your chin, or there would be a
panic in the ribs again.  By that time you were nothing but wriggles and
giggles and little cries.

"Don’t, Grandmother; you tickle."  And Grandmother would pause,
breathless as yourself, and say, "_Oh_, my!"

"Now you must do it some more, Grandmother," you would urge, but she
would shake her head at you and go back to her knitting again.

"Grandmother’s tired," she would say.

You were tired, too, so you lay with your head on her shoulder, sucking
your thumb.  To and fro Grandmother rocked you, to and fro, while the
kitten played with the ball of yarn on the floor.  The afternoon
sunshine fell warmly through the open window.  Bees and butterflies
hovered in the honeysuckles.  Birds were singing.  Your mind went
a-wandering—out through the yard and the front gate and across the road.
On it went past the Taylors’ big dog and up by Aunty Green’s, where the
crullers lived, all brown and crusty, in the high stone crock.  It
scrambled down by the brook where the little green frogs were hopping
into the water, leaving behind them trembling rings that grew wider and
wider and wider, till pretty soon they were the ocean.  That was a big
thought, and you roused yourself.

[Illustration: "TO AND FRO GRANDMOTHER ROCKED YOU"]

"How big is the ocean, Grandmother?"

"As big—oh, as big as all out-doors."

Your mind waded out into the ocean till the water was up to its knees.
Then it scrambled back again and lay in the warm sand and looked up at
the sky. And the sand rocked to and fro, to and fro, as your mind lay
there, all curled up and warm, by the ocean, watching the butterflies in
the honeysuckles and the crullers in the crock.  And all the people were
singing ... all the people in the world, almost ... and the little green
frogs....  "Bye—bye, bye—bye," they were singing, in time to the rocking
of the sand ... "Bye—bye" ... "Bye" ... "Bye" ...

And when you awoke you were on the sofa, all covered up with
Grandmother’s shawl.

So you liked the gay week-day Grandmother best, with her soft lap and
her lullabies.  Grandfather must have liked her best too, you thought,
for when he went away forever and forgot his cane, it was the Sunday
Grandmother he left behind—a little, gray Grandmother sitting by the
window and gazing silently through the panes.

What she saw there you never knew—but it was not the trees, or the
distant hills, or the people passing in the road.




                        *While Aunt Jane Played*


Aunt Jane played the piano in the parlor.  You could play, too—"Peter,
Peter, Punkin-eater," with your forefinger, Aunt Jane holding it in her
hand so that you would strike the right notes. But when Aunt Jane played
she used both hands.  Sometimes the music was so fast and stirring that
it made you dance, or romp, or sing, or play that you were not a little
boy at all, but a soldier like Grandfather or George Washington; and
sometimes the music was so soft and beautiful that you wanted to be a
prince in a fairy tale; and then again it was so slow and grim that you
wished it were not Sunday, for the Sunday tunes, like your tight, black,
Sunday shoes, had all their buttons on, and so were not comfy or made
for fun.  You could not march to them, or fight to them, or be a
grown-up man to them.  Somehow they always reminded you that you were
only a pouting, naughty little boy.

The sound of the piano came out to you as you lingered by the table
where Lizzie-in-the-kitchen was making pies.  You ran into the parlor
and sat on a hassock by Aunt Jane, watching her as she played. It was
not a fast piece that day, nor yet a slow one, but just in-between, so
that as you sat by the piano you wondered if the snow and sloppy little
puddles would ever go and leave Our Yard green again. Even with rubber
boots now Mother made you keep the paths, and mostly you had to stay in
the house.  Through the window you could see the maple boughs still
bare, but between them the sky was warm and blue.  Pretty soon the
leaves would be coming, hiding the sky.

"Auntie."

"Yes," though she did not stop playing.

"Where do the leaves come from?"

"From the little buds on the twigs, dearie."

"But how do they know when it’s time to come, Auntie Jane?  ’Cause if
they came too soon, they might catch cold and die."

"Well, the sun tells them when."

"How does the sun tell them, Auntie?"

"Why, he makes the trees all warm, and when the buds feel it, out they
come."

"Oh."

Your eyes were very wide.  They were always wide when you wondered; and
sometimes when you were not wondering at all, just hearing Aunt Jane
play would make you, and then your eyes would grow bigger and bigger as
you sat on the hassock by the piano, looking at the maple boughs and
hearing the music and being a little boy.

It was a beautiful piece that Aunt Jane was playing that March morning.
The sun came and shone on the maple boughs.

"And now the sun is telling the little buds," you said to yourself in
time to Aunt Jane’s music, but so softly that she did not hear.

"And now the little buds are saying ’All right,’" you whispered, more
softly still, for the bigger your eyes got, the smaller, always, was
your voice.

A little song-sparrow came and teetered on a twig.

"Oh, Auntie, see!  The birdie’s come, too, to tell the buds, I guess."

Aunt Jane turned her head and smiled at the sparrow, but she did not
stop playing.  Your heart was beating in time to the music, as you sat
on the hassock by the piano, watching the bird and the sun. The sparrow
danced like Aunt Jane’s fingers, and put up his little open bill.  He
was singing, though you could not hear.

"But, Auntie."

"Yes."

"Who told the little bird?"

"God told the little bird, dearie—away down South where the oranges and
roses grow in the winter, and there isn’t any snow.  And the little bird
flew up here to Ourtown to build his nest and sing in our maple-tree."

Your eyes were so wide now that you had no voice at all.  You just sat
there on the hassock while Aunt Jane played.

Away down South ... away down South, singing in an orange-tree, you saw
the little bird ... but now he stopped to listen with his head on one
side, and his bright eye shining, while the warm wind rustled in the
leaves ... God was telling him ... So the little bird spread his wings
and flew ... away up in the blue sky, above the trees, above the
steeples, over the hills and running brooks ... miles and miles and
miles ... till he came to Our Yard, in the sun.

"And here he is now," you ended aloud your little story, for you had
found your voice again.

"Who is here, dearie?" asked Aunt Jane, still playing.

"Why, the little bird," you said.

The sparrow flew away.  The sun came through the window to where you sat
on the hassock, by the piano.  It warmed your knees and told you—what it
told the buds, what God told the little bird in the orange-tree.  Like
the little bird you could stay no longer.  You ran out-of-doors into the
soft, sweet wind and the morning.

Aunt Jane gave the keys a last caress. Grandmother turned in her chair
by the sitting-room window.

"What were you playing, Janey?"

"Mendelssohn’s ’Spring Song,’ Mother."

The little gray Grandmother looked out-of-doors again to where you
played, singing, in the sun.

"Isn’t it beautiful?" she murmured.

You waved your hand to her and laughed, and she nodded back at you,
smiling at your fun.

"Bless his heart, _he’s_ playing the music, too," she said.




                            *Little Sister*


In the daytime she played with you, and believed all you said, and was
always ready to cry.  At night she slept with you and the four dolls.
She was your little sister, Lizbeth.

"Whose little girl are you?" they would ask her.  If she were sitting in
Father’s lap, she would doubtless reply—

"Father’s little girl."

But—

"Oh, _Lizbeth_!" Mother would cry.

"—and Mother’s," Lizbeth would add, to keep peace in the family.  Though
she never mentioned you at such times, she told you privately that she
would marry you when you grew to be a man, and publicly she remembered
you in her prayers.  Kneeling down at Mother’s knee, you and Lizbeth, in
your little white nighties, before you went to bed, you said "Now I lay
me" in unison, and ended with blessing every one, only at the very end
_you_ said:

[Illustration: "YOU SAID ’NOW I LAY ME’ IN UNISON"]

"—and God bless Captain Jinks," for even a wooden soldier needed God in
those long, dark nights of childhood, while Lizbeth said:

"—and God bless all my dollies, and send my Sally doll a new leg."

But though God sent three new legs in turn, Sally was always losing
them, so that finally Lizbeth confided in Mother:

"Pretty soon God ’ll be tired of sending Sally new legs, I guess.  _You_
speak to Him next time, Mother, ’cause I’m ’shamed to any more."

And when Mother asked Him, He sent a new Sally instead of a new leg.  It
would be cheaper, Mother told Father, in the long-run.

In the diplomatic precedence of Lizbeth’s prayers, Father and Mother
were blessed first, and you came between "Grandfather and Grandmother"
and "God bless my dollies."  Thus was your family rank established for
all time by a little girl in a white night-gown.  You were a little
lower than your elders, it is true, but you were higher than the legless
Sally or the waxen blonde.

When Lizbeth and you were good, you loved each other, and when you were
bad, both of you at the same time, you loved each other too, _very_
dearly.  But sometimes it happened that Lizbeth was good and you were
bad, and then she only loved Mother, and ran and told tales on you. And
you—well, you did not love anybody at all.

When your insides said it would be a long time before dinner, and your
mouth watered, and you stood on a chair by the pantry shelf with your
hand in a brown jar, and when Lizbeth found you there, you could tell by
just looking at her face that she was very good that day, and that she
loved Mother better than she did you. So you knew without even thinking
about it that you were very bad, and you did not love anybody at all,
and your heart quaked within you at Lizbeth’s sanctity.  But there was
always a last resort.

"Lizbeth, if you tell"—you mumbled awfully, pointing at her an uncanny
forefinger dripping preserves—"if you tell, a great big black Gummy-gum
’ll get you when it’s dark, and he’ll pick out your eyes and gnaw your
ears off, and he’ll keep one paw over your mouth, so you can’t holler,
and when the blood comes—"

Lizbeth quailed before you.  She began to cry.

"You won’t tell, _will_ you?" you demanded, fiercely, making eyes like a
Gummy-gum and showing your white teeth.

"No—o—o," wailed Lizbeth.

"Well, stop crying, then," you commanded, sucking your syrupy fingers.
"If you cry, the Gummy-gum ’ll come and get you _now_."

Lizbeth looked fearfully over her shoulder and stopped.  By that time
your fingers were all sucked, and the cover was back on the jar, and you
were saved.  But that night, when Mother and Father came home, you
watched Lizbeth, and lest she should forget, you made the eyes of a
Gummy-gum, when no one but Lizbeth saw.  Mother tucked you both into bed
and kissed you and put out the light.  Then Lizbeth whimpered.

[Illustration: "MOTHER TUCKED YOU BOTH INTO BED AND KISSED YOU"]

"Why, Lizbeth," said Mother from the dark.

Quick as a flash you snuggled up to Lizbeth’s side.  "The Gummy-gum ’ll
get you if you don’t stop," you whispered, warningly—but with one dismal
wail Lizbeth was out of bed and in Mother’s arms. Then you knew all was
over.  Desperately you awaited retribution, humming a little song, and
so it was to the tune of "I want to be an angel" that you heard Lizbeth
sob out her awful tale:

"Harry ... he ... he said the Gummy-gum ’d get me ... if I told about
the p’serves."

And it was _you_ the Gummy-gum got that time, and your blood, you
thought, almost came.

But other nights when you went to bed—nights after days when you had
both been good and loved each other—it was fine to lie there in the dark
with Lizbeth, playing Make-Believe before you fell asleep.

"I tell you," you said, putting up your foot so that the covers rose
upon it, making a little tent—"I tell you; let’s be Indians."

"Let’s," said Lizbeth.

"And this is our little tent, and there’s bears outside what ’ll eat you
up if you don’t look out."

Lizbeth shivered and drew her knees up to her chin, so that she was
nothing but a little warm roll under the wigwam.

"And now the bears are coming—wow! wow! wow!"

And as the great hungry beasts pushed their snouts under the canvas and
growled and gnashed their teeth, Lizbeth, little squaw, squealed with
terror, and seized you as you lay there helpless in your triple rôle of
tent and bears and Indian brave; seized you in the ticklish ribs so that
the wigwam came tumbling about your ears, and the Indian brave rolled
and shrieked with laughter, and the brute bears fled to their mountain
caves.

"Children!"

"W-what?"

"Stop that noise and go right to sleep. Do you hear me?"

Was it not the voice of the mamma bear? Stealthily you crept under the
fallen canvas, which had grown smaller, somehow, in the _mêlée_, so that
when you pulled it up to your chin and tucked it in around you, Lizbeth
was out in the cold; and when Lizbeth tucked herself in, then you were
shivering.  But by-and-by you huddled close in the twisted sheets and
talked low beneath the edge of the coverlet, so that no one heard
you—not even the Gummy-gum, who spent his nights on the back stairs.

"Does the Gummy-gum eat little folks while they’re asleep?" asked
Lizbeth, with a precautionary snuggle-up.

"No; ’cause the Gummy-gum is afraid of the little black gnomes what live
in the pillows."

"Well, if the little black gnomes live in the pillows, why can’t you
feel them then?"

"’Cause, now, they’re so teenty-weenty and so soft."

"And can’t you ever see them at all?"

"No; ’cause they don’t come out till you’re asleep."

"Oh ... Well, Harry—now—if a Gummy-gum had a head like a horse, and a
tail like a cow, and a bill like a duck, what?"

"Why—why, he _wouldn’t_, ’cause he _isn’t_."

"Oh ... Well, is the Gummy-gum just afraid of the little gnomes, and
that’s all?"

"Um-hm; ’cause the little gnomes have little knives, all sharp and
shiny, what they got on the Christmas-tree."

"_Our_ Christmas-tree?"

"No; the little gnomes’s Christmas-tree."

"The little gnomes’s Christmas-tree?"

"Um-hm."

"Why?"

"’Cause ... why, there ain’t any why ... just Christmas-tree."

"Just ... just Christmas-tree?"

"Um."

"Why ... I thought ... I ..."

And you and Lizbeth never felt Mother smooth out the covers at all,
though she lifted you up to straighten them; and so you slept,
spoon-fashion, warm as toast, with the little black gnomes watching in
the pillows, and the Gummy-gum, hungry but afraid, in the dark of the
back stairs.

The pear-tree on the edge of the enchanted garden, green with summer and
tremulous with breeze, sheltered a little girl and her dolls.  On the
cool turf she sat alone, preoccupied, her dress starched and white like
the frill of a valentine, her fat little legs straight out before her,
her bright little curls straight down behind, her lips parted, her eyes
gentle with a dream of motherhood—Mamma Lizbeth crooning lullabies to
her four children cradled in the soft grass.

"I’ll tell you just one more story," she was saying, "just one, and
that’s all, and then you children must go to sleep.  Sally, lie still!
Ain’t you ’shamed, kicking all the covers off and catching cold?
Naughty girl.  Now you must listen.  Well ... Once upon a time there was
a fairy what lived in a rose, and she had beautiful wings—oh, all
colors—and she could go wherever she wanted to without anybody ever
seeing her, ’cause she was iwisible, which is when you can’t see anybody
at all.  Well, one day the fairy saw a little girl carrying her father’s
dinner, and she turned herself into an old witch and said to the little
girl, ’Come to me, pretty one, and I will give thee a stick of
peppermint candy.’  Now the little girl, she just loved candy, and
peppermint was her favorite, but she was a good little girl and minded
her mother most dut’fly, and never told any lies or anything; so she
courtesied to the old witch and said, ’Thank you kindly, but I must
hurry with my father’s dinner, or he will be hungry waiting.’  _And what
do you think_?  Just then the old witch turned into the beautiful fairy
again, and she kissed the little girl, and gave her a whole bag of
peppermint candy, and a doll what talked, and a velocipede for her
little brother. And what does this story teach us, children? ... Yes.
That’s right.  It teaches us to be good little boys and girls and mind
our parents.  And that’s all."

The dolls fell asleep.  Lizbeth whispered lest they should awake, and
tiptoed through the grass.  A blue-jay called harshly from a neighboring
tree.  Lizbeth frowned and glanced anxiously at the grassy trundle-bed.
"’Sh!" she said, warningly, her finger on her lip, whenever you came
near.

Suddenly there was a rustle in the leaves above, and out of their
greenness a little pear dropped to the grass at Lizbeth’s feet.

"It’s mine," you cried, reaching out your hand.

"No—o," screamed Lizbeth.  "It’s for my dollies’ breakfast," and she
hugged the stunted, speckled fruit to her bosom so tightly that its
brown, soft side was crushed in her hands.  You tried to snatch it from
her, but she struck you with her little clinched fist.

"No—o," she cried again.  "It’s my dollies’ pear."  Her lip quivered.
Tears sprang into her eyes.  You straightened yourself.

"All right," you muttered, fiercely.  "All right for you.  I’ll run
away, I will, and I’ll never come back—_never_!"

You climbed the stone wall.

"No," cried Lizbeth.

"I’ll never come back," you called, defiantly, as you stood on the top.

"No," Lizbeth screamed, scrambling to her feet and turning to you a face
wet with tears and white with terror.

"Never, _never_!" was your farewell to her as you jumped.  Deaf to the
pitiful wail behind you, you ran out across the meadow, muttering to
yourself your fateful, parting cry.

Lizbeth looked for a moment at the wall where you had stood.  Then she
ran sobbing after you, around through the gate, for the wall was too
high for her, and out into the field, where to her blurred vision you
were only a distant figure now, never, never to return.

"Harry!" she screamed, and the wind blew her cry to you across the
meadow, but you ran on, unheeding.  She struggled after you.  The
daisies brushed her skirt.  Creeping vines caught at her little shoes
and she fell.  Scratched by briers, she scrambled to her feet again and
stumbled on, blind with tears, crying ever "Harry, Harry!" but so
faintly now in her sobs and breathlessness that you did not hear.  At
the top of a weary, weary slope she sank helpless and heartbroken in the
grass, a little huddle of curls and pinafore, so that your conscience
smote you as you stood waiting, half hidden by the hedge.

"Don’t be a cry-baby.  I was only fooling," you said, and at the sound
of your voice Lizbeth lifted her face from the grasses and put out her
arms to you with a cry. In one hand was the little pear.

"Oh, I don’t want the old thing," you cried, throwing yourself beside
her on the turf.  Smiling again through her tears, Lizbeth reached out a
little hand scratched by briers, and patted your cheek.

"Harry," she said, "you can have all my animal crackers for your
m’nagerie, if you want to, and my little brown donkey; and I’ll play
horse with you any time you want me to, Harry, I will."

So, after all, you did not run away, and you and Lizbeth went home at
last across the meadow, hand in hand. Behind you, hidden and forgotten
in the red clover, lay your quarrel and the little pear.

When Lizbeth loved you, there were stars in her brown eyes; when you
looked more closely, so that you were very near their shining, you saw
in their round, black pupils, smiling back at you, the face of a little
boy; and then in your own eyes, Lizbeth, holding your cheeks between her
hands, found the face of a little girl.

"Why, it’s _me_!" she cried.

And when you looked again into Lizbeth’s eyes, you saw yourself; and
"Oh, Mother," you said afterwards, for you had thought deeply, "I think
it’s the _good_ Harry that’s in Lizbeth’s eyes, ’cause when I look at
him, he’s always smiling."  That was as far as you thought about it
then; but once, long afterwards, it came to you that little boys never
find their pictures in a sister’s eyes unless they are good, and love
her, and hold her cheeks between their hands.

Lizbeth’s cheeks were softer than yours, and when she played horse, or
the day was windy, so that the grass rippled and the trees sang, or when
it was tub-day with soap and towels up-stairs, her cheeks were pink as
the roses in Mother’s garden.  That is how you came to tell Mother a
great secret, one evening in summer, as you sat with her and Lizbeth on
the front steps watching the sun go down.

"I guess it’s tub-day in the sky, Mother."

"Tub-day?"

"Why, yes.  All the little clouds have been having their bath, I think,
’cause they’re all pink and shiny, like Lizbeth."

But once Lizbeth’s cheeks were white, and she stayed in bed every day,
and you played by yourself.  Twice a day they took you as far as the
bedroom door to see her.

[Illustration: "THEY TOOK YOU AS FAR AS THE BEDROOM DOOR TO SEE HER"]

"H’lo," you said, as you peeked.

"H’lo," she whispered back, very softly, for she was almost asleep, and
she did not even smile at you, and before you could tell her what the
Pussy-cat did they took you away—but not till you had seen the two
glasses on the table with the silver spoon on top.

There was no noise in the days then. Even the trees stopped singing, and
the wind walked on tiptoe and whispered into people’s ears, like you.

"Is it to-day Lizbeth comes down-stairs?" you asked every morning.

"Do you think Lizbeth will play with me to-morrow?" you asked every
night. Night came a long time after morning in the days when Lizbeth
could not play.

"Oh, dear, I don’t think I feel very well," you told Mother.  Tears
spilled out of your eyes and rolled down your cheeks. Mother felt your
brow and looked at your tongue.

"_I_ know what’s the matter with my little boy," she said, and kissed
you; but she did not put you to bed.

One day, when no one was near, you peeked and saw Lizbeth.  She was
alone and very little and very white.

"H’lo," you said.

"H’lo," she whispered back, and smiled at you, and when she smiled you
could not wait any longer.  You went in very softly and kissed her where
she lay and gave her a little hug.  She patted your cheek.

"I’d like my dollies," she whispered. You brought them to her, all
four—the two china ones and the rag brunette and the waxen blonde.

"Dollies are sick," she said.  "They ’most died, I guess.  Play you’re
sick, too."

Mother found you there—Lizbeth and you and the four dolls, side by side
on the bed, all in a little sick row.  And from the very moment that you
kissed Lizbeth and gave her the little hug, she grew better, so that
by-and-by the wind blew louder and the trees sang lustily, and all Our
Yard was bright with flowers and sun and voices and play, for you and
Lizbeth and the four dolls were well again.




                               *Our Yard*


The breadth of Our Yard used to be from the beehives to the red
geraniums.  When the beehives were New York, the geraniums were Japan,
so the distance is easy to calculate.  The apple-tree Alps overshadowed
New York then, which seems strange now, but geography is not what it
used to be.  In the lapse of years the Manhattan hives have crumbled in
the Alpine shade, an earthquake of garden spade has wiped Japan from the
map, and where the scarlet islands lay in the sun there are green
billows now, and other little boys in the grass, at play.

In the old days when you sailed away on the front gate, which swung and
creaked through storms, to the other side of the sea, you could just
descry through a fog of foliage the rocky shores of the back-yard fence,
washed by a surf of golden-rod.  If you moored your ship—for an
unlatched gate meant prowling dogs in the garden, and Mother was cross
at that—if you anchored your gate-craft dutifully to become a soldier,
you could march to the back fence, but it was a long journey.  Starting,
a drummer-boy, you could never foretell your end, for the future was
vague, even with the fence in view, and your cocked hat on your curls,
and your drumsticks in your hand.  Lizbeth and the dolls might halt you
at the front steps and muster you out of service to become a doctor with
Grandmother’s spectacles and Grandfather’s cane.  And if the dolls were
well that day, with normal pulses and unflushed cheeks, and you marched
by with martial melody, there was your stalled hobby-horse on the side
porch, neighing to you for clover hay; and stopping to feed him meant
desertion from the ranks, to become a farmer, tilling the soil and
bartering acorn eggs and clean sand butter on market-day.  And even
though you marched untempted by bucolic joys, there lay in wait for you
the kitchen door, breathing a scent of crullers, or gingerbread, or
apple-pies, or leading your feet astray to the unscraped frosting-bowl
or the remnant cookies burned on one side, and so not good for supper,
but fine for weary drummer-boys.  So whether you reached the fence that
day was a question for you and the day and the sirens that beckoned to
you along your play.

Across the clover prairie the trellis mountains reared their vine-clad
heights. Through their morning-glories ran a little pass, which led to
the enchanted garden on the other side, but the pass was so narrow and
overhung with vines that when Grandfather was a pack-horse and carried
you through on his back, your outstretched feet would catch on the
trellis sides.  Then the pack-horse would pick his way cautiously and
you would dig your heels into his sides and hold fast, and so you got
through.  Once inside the garden, oh, wonder of pansies and hollyhocks
and bachelor’s-buttons and roses and sweet smells!  The sun shone
warmest there, and the fairies lived there, Mother said.

"But when it rains, Mother?"

"Oh, then they hide beneath the trellis, under the honeysuckles."

Mother wore an apron and sun-bonnet, and knelt in the little path,
digging with a trowel in the moist, brown earth.  You helped her with
your little spade.  Under a lilac-bush Lizbeth made mud-pies, and the
pies of the enchanted garden were the brownest and richest in all Our
Yard. They were the most like Mother’s, Lizbeth said.  Grandfather sat
on the wheelbarrow-ship and smoked.

"Do fairies smoke, Grandfather?"

"The old grandfather fairies do," he said.

Of all the flowers in the enchanted garden you liked the roses best, and
of all the roses you liked the red.  There was a big one that hung on
the wall above your head.  You could just reach it when you stood on
tiptoe, and pulling it down to you then, you would bury your face in its
petals and take a long snuff, and say,

"Um-m-m."

And when you let it go, it bobbed and courtesied on its prickly stem.
But one morning, very early, when you pulled it down to you, you were
rough with it, and it sprinkled your face with dew.

"The rose is crying," Lizbeth said.

"You should be very gentle with roses," Mother told you.  "Sometimes
when folks are sick or cross, just the sight of a red rose cheers them
and makes them smile again."

That was a beautiful thought, and it came back to you the day you left
Our Yard and ran away.  You were gone a long time.  It was late in the
afternoon when you trudged guiltily back again, and when you were still
a long way off you could see Mother waiting for you at the gate.  The
brown switch, doubtless, was waiting too.  So you stole into Our Yard
through the back fence, and hid in the enchanted garden, crying and
afraid. It began to rain, a gentle summer shower, and like the fairies
you hid beneath the honeysuckles.  Looking up through your tears, you
saw the red rose—and remembered.  The rain stopped.  You climbed upon
the wheelbarrow-ship and pulled the rose from the vine.  Trembling, you
approached the house.  Softly you opened the front door.  At the sight
of you Mother gave a little cry.  Your lip quivered; the tears rolled
down your cheeks; for you were cold and wet and dreary.

"M-mother," you said, with outstretched hand, "here’s a r-rose I brought
you"; and she folded you and the flower in her arms.  It was true, then,
what she had told you—that when people are cross there is sometimes
nothing in the world like the sight of a sweet red rose to cheer them
and make them smile again.

Once in Our Yard, you were safe from bad boys and their fists, from bad
dogs and their bites, and all the other perils of the road.  Yet Our
Yard had its dangers too.  Through the rhubarb thicket in the corner of
the fence stalked a black bear. You had heard him growl.  You had seen
the flash of his white teeth.  You had tracked him to his lair.  Just
behind you, one hand upon your coat, came Lizbeth.

"’Sh!  I see him," you whispered, as you raised your wooden gun.

Bang!  Bang!

And the bear fell dead.

"Don’t hurt Pussy," said Mother, warningly.

"No," you said, and the dead bear purred and rubbed his head against
your legs.  Once, after you had killed and eaten him, he mewed and ran
before you to his basket-cave; and there were five little bears, all
blind and crying, and you took them home and tamed them by the kitchen
fire.

But the bear was nothing to the Wild Man who lived next door.  In the
barn, close to your fence, he lay in wait for little girls and boys to
eat them and drink their blood and gnaw their bones.  Oh, you had seen
him once yourself, as you peered through a knot-hole in the barn-side.
He was sitting on an upturned water-pail, smoking a pipe and muttering.

You and Lizbeth stole out to look at him.  Hand in hand you tiptoed
across the clover prairie where the red Indians roved. You scanned the
horizon, but there was not a feather or painted face in sight
to-day—though they always came when you least expected them, popping up
from the tall grass with wild, blood-curdling yells, and scalping you
when you didn’t watch out.  Across the prairie, then, you went,
silently, hand in hand.  The sun fell warm and golden in the open.
Birds were singing in the sky, unmindful of the lurking perils among the
tall grass and beyond the fence.  Back of you were home and Mother’s
arms, and in the pantry window, cooling, two juicy pies.  Before you,
across the clover, a great gray dungeon frowned upon you; within its
walls a creature of blood and mystery waiting with hungry jaws.  Hushed
and timorous, you approached.

"Oh, I’m afraid," Lizbeth whimpered. Savagely you caught her arm.

"’Sh!  He’ll hear you," you hissed through chattering teeth.  A cloud
hid the sun, and the ominous shadow fell upon you as you crouched,
trembling, on the edge of the raspberry wood.

"Sh!" you said.  Under cover of the forest shade you crept with bated
breath, on all-fours, stealthily.  Oh, what was that?  That awful sound,
that hideous groan?  From the barn it came, with a crunching of teeth
and a rattle of chain. Lizbeth gave a little cry, seized you, and hid
her face against your coat.

"’Sh!" you said.  "That’s him!  Hear him!"

Through wood and prairie rang a piercing cry—

"Mother!  I want my mother!"

And Lizbeth fled, wailing, across the plain.  You followed—to cheer her.

"Cowardy Calf!" you said, but you did not say it till you had reached
the kitchen door.  And in hunting the Wild Man you never got farther
than his groan.

Mornings in Our Yard the clover prairie sparkled with a million gems.
The fairies had dropped them, dancing in the moonbeams, while you slept.
Strung on a blade of grass you found a necklace of diamonds left by the
queen herself in her flight at dawn, but when you plucked it, the
quivering brilliants melted into water drops and trickled down your
hand.  Then the warm sun came and took the diamonds back to the fairies
again—but your shoes were still damp with dew.  And by-and-by you would
be sneezing, and Mother would be taking down bottles for you, for the
things that fairies wear are not good for little boys.  And if ever you
squash the fairies’ diamonds beneath your feet, and don’t change your
shoes, the fairies will be angry with you, and you will be catching
cold; and if you take the queen’s necklace—oh, then watch out, for they
will be putting a necklace of red flannel on you!

Wide-awake was Our Yard in the morning with its birds and wind and
sunshine and your play, but when noonday dinner was over there was a
yawning in the trees. The birds hushed their songs.  Grandfather dozed
in his chair on the porch. The green grass dozed in the sun.  And as the
shadows lengthened even the perils slept—Indians on the clover prairie,
bear in the rhubarb thicket, Wild Man in the barn.  In the apple-tree
shade you lay wondering, looking up at the sky—wondering why bees purred
like pussy-cats, why the sparrows bowed to you as they eyed you
sidewise, what they twittered in the leaves, where the clouds went when
they sailed to the end of the sky.  Three clouds there were, floating
above the apple-tree, and two were big and one was little.

"The big clouds are the Mother and Father clouds," you told yourself,
for no one was there to hear, "and the little one is the Little Boy
cloud, and they are out walking in the sky.  And now the Mother cloud is
talking to the Little Boy cloud. ’Hurry up,’ she says; ’why do you walk
so slow?’  And the Little Boy cloud says, ’I can’t go any faster ’cause
my legs are so short.’  And then the Father cloud laughs and says,
’Let’s have some ice-cream soda.’  Then the Little Boy cloud says, ’I’ll
take vaniller, and make it sweet,’ and they all drink.  And by-and-by
they all go home and have supper, and after supper the Mother cloud
undresses the Little Boy cloud, and puts on his nighty, and he kneels
down and says, ’Now I lay me down to sleep.’  And then the Mother cloud
kisses the Little Boy cloud on both cheeks and on his eyes and on his
curls and on his mouth twice, and he cuddles down under the moon and
goes to sleep.  And that’s all."

Far beyond the apple-tree, far beyond your ken, the three clouds
floated—Father and Mother and Little Son—else your story had been
longer; and in the floating of little clouds, in the making of little
stories, in the sleeping of little boys, it was always easiest when Our
Yard slumbered in the afternoon.

When supper was over a bonfire blazed in the western sky, just over the
back fence.  The clouds built it, you explained to Lizbeth, to keep
themselves warm at night.  It was a beautiful fire, all gold and red,
but as Our Yard darkened, the fire sank lower till only the sparks
remained, and sometimes the clouds came and put the sparks out too.
When the moon shone you could see, through the window by your bed, the
clover prairie and the trellis mountains, silver with fairies, and you
longed to hold one in your hand.  But when the night fell moonless and
starless, the fairies in Our Yard groped their way—you could see their
lanterns twinkling in the trees—and there were goblins under every bush,
and, crouching in the black shadows, was the Wild Man, gnawing a little
boy’s bone. Oh, Our Yard was awful on a dark night, and when you were
tucked in bed and the lamp was out and Mother away downstairs, you could
hear the Wild Man crunching his bone beneath your window, and you pulled
the covers over your head. But always, when you woke, Our Yard was
bright and green again, for though the moon ran away some nights, the
sun came every day.

With all its greenness and its brightness and its vastness and its
enchanted garden, Our Yard bore a heavy yoke. You were not quite sure
what the burden was, but it was something about tea. Men, painted and
feathered like the red Indians, had gone one night to a ship in the
harbor and poured the tea into the sea. That you knew; and you had
listened and heard of the midnight ride of Paul Revere. Through the
window you saw Our Yard smiling in the morning sun; trees green with
summer; flight of white clouds in the sky; flight of brown birds in the
bush. Wondering, you saw it there, a fair land manacled by a tyrant’s
hand, and the blood mounted to your cheeks.

"Mother, I want my sword."

"It is where you left it, my boy."

"And my soldier-hat and drum."

"They are under the stairs."

Over your shoulder you slung your drum.  With her own hands Mother
belted your sword around you and set your cocked hat on your curls.
Then twice she kissed you, and you marched away to the music of your
drum.  She watched you from the open door.

It was a windy morning, and you were bravest in the wind.  From the back
fence to the front gate, from the beehives to the red geraniums, there
was a scent and stir of battle in the air.  Rhubarb thicket and
raspberry wood re-echoed with the beat of drums and the tramp of
marching feet.  Far away beyond the wood-pile hills, behind the trellis
mountains where the morning-glories clung, tremulous, in the gale, even
the enchanted garden woke from slumber and the flowers shuddered in
their peaceful beds.  On you marched, through the wind and the morning,
on through Middlesex, village and farm, till you heard the cannon and
the battle-cries.

"Halt!"

You unslung your drum.  Mounting your charger, you galloped down the
line.

"Forward!"

And you rode across the blood-stained clover.  Into the battle you led
them, sword in hand—into the thickest of the fight—while all about you,
thundering in the apple-boughs, reverberating in the wood-pile hills,
roared the guns of the west wind.  Fair in the face of that cannonade
you flung the flower of your army. Around you lay the wounded, the dead,
the dying.  Beneath you your charger fell, blood gushing from his torn
side. A thrust bayonet swept off your cocked hat.  You were down
yourself.  Tut! ’Twas a mere scratch—and you struggled on.  Repulsed,
you rallied and charged again ... again ... again, across the clover, to
the mouths of the smoking guns. Afoot, covered with blood, your
shattered sword gleaming in the morning sun, you stood at last on the
scorched heights. Before your flashing eyes, a rout of redcoats in
retreat; behind your tossing curls, the buff and blue.

A cry of triumph came down the beaten wind:

"Mother!  Mother!  We licked ’em!"

"Whom?"

"The Briddish!"

And Our Yard was free.




                          *The Toy Grenadier*


It was a misnomer.  He was not a captain at all, nor was he of the Horse
Marines. He was a mere private in the Grenadier Guards, with his musket
at a carry and his heels together, and his little fingers touching the
seams of his pantaloons.  Still, Captain Jinks was the name he went by
when he first came to Our House, years ago, and Captain Jinks he will be
always in your memory—the only original Captain Jinks, the ballad to the
contrary notwithstanding.

It was Christmas Eve when you first saw him.  He was stationed on sentry
duty beneath a fir-tree, guarding a pile of commissary stores.  He
looked neither to the left nor to the right, but straight before him,
and not a tremor or blink or sigh disturbed his military bearing.  His
bearskin was glossy as a pussy-cat’s fur; his scarlet coat, with the
cross of honor on his heart, fitted him like a glove, and every gilt
button of it shone in the candlelight; and oh, the loveliness, the
spotless loveliness, of his sky-blue pantaloons!

"My boy," said Father, "allow me to present Captain Jinks.  Captain
Jinks, my son."

"Oh!" you cried, the moment you clapped eyes on him.  "Oh, Father!  What
a beautiful soldier!"

And at your praise the Captain’s checks were scarlet.  He would have
saluted, no doubt, had you been a military man, but you were only a
civilian then.

"Take him," said Father, "and give him some rations.  He’s about
starved, I guess, guarding those chocolates."

So you relieved the Captain of his stern vigil—or, rather, the Captain
and his gun, for he refused to lay down his arms even for mess call,
without orders from the officer of the guard, though he did desert his
post, which was inconsistent from a military point of view, and deserved
court-martial.  And while he was gone the commissary stores were
plundered by ruthless, sticky hands.

Lizbeth brought a new wax doll to mess with the Captain.  A beautiful
blonde she was, and the Captain was gallantry itself, but she was a
little stiff with him, in her silks and laces, preferring, no doubt, a
messmate with epaulets and sword.  So the chat lagged till the Rag Doll
came—an unassuming brunette creature—and the Captain got on very well
with her. Indeed, when the Wax Doll flounced away, the Captain leaned
and whispered in the Rag Doll’s ear.  What he said you did not hear, but
the Rag Doll drew away, shyly—

"Very sudden," she seemed to say. But the Captain leaned nearer, at an
angle perilous to both, and—kissed her!  The Rag Doll fainted to the
floor.  The Captain was at his wits’ end.  Without orders he could not
lay aside his gun, for he was a sentry, albeit off his post.  Yet here
was a lady in distress.  The gun or the lady?  The lady or the gun?  The
Captain struggled betwixt his honor and his love. In the very stress of
his contending emotions he tottered, and would have fallen to the Rag
Doll’s side, but you caught him just in time.  Lizbeth applied the
smelling-bottle to the Rag Doll’s nose, and she revived.  Pale, but
every inch a rag lady, she rose, leaning on Lizbeth. She gave the
Captain a withering glance, and swept towards the open door.  The
Captain did not flinch.  Proudly he drew himself to his full height; his
heels clicked together; his gun fell smartly to his side; and as the
lady passed he looked her squarely in her scornful eyes, and bore their
_congé_ like a soldier.

Next morning—Christmas morning—in the trenches before the Coal Scuttle,
the Captain fought with reckless bravery. The earthworks of
building-blocks reached barely to his cartridge-belt, yet he stood erect
in a hail of marble balls.

"Jinks, you’re clean daft," cried Grandfather.  "Lie down, man!"

But the Captain would not budge. Commies and glassies crashed around
him. They ploughed up the earthworks before him; they did great
execution on the legs of chairs and tables and other non-combatants
behind.  Yet there he stood, unmoved in the midst of the carnage, his
heels together, his little fingers just touching the seams of his
pantaloons.  It was for all the world as though he were on dress parade.
Perhaps he was—for while he stood there, valorous in that Christmas
fight, his eyes were on the heights of Rocking Chair beyond, where, safe
from the marble hail, sat the Rag Doll with Lizbeth and the waxen
blonde.

There was a rumble—a crash through the torn earthworks—a shock—a scream
from the distant heights—and the Captain fell.  A monstrous glassy had
struck him fairly in the legs, and owing to his military habit of
standing with them close together—well, it was all too sad, too
harrowing, to relate.  An ambulance corps of Grandfather and Uncle Ned
carried the crippled soldier to the Tool Chest Hospital.  He was just
conscious, that was all.  The operation he bore with great fortitude,
refusing to take chloroform, and insisting on dying with his musket
beside him, if die he must.  What seemed to give him greatest anguish
was his heels, for, separated at last, they would not click together
now; and his little fingers groped nervously for the misplaced seams of
his pantaloons.

Long afterwards, when the Captain had left his cot for active duty
again, it was recalled that the very moment when he fell so gallantly in
the trenches that day a lady was found unconscious, flat on her face, at
the foot of Rocking Chair Hill.

Captain Jinks was never the same after that.  Still holding his gun as
smartly as before, there was, on the other hand, a certain carelessness
of attire, a certain dulness of gilt buttons, a smudginess of scarlet
coat, as though it were thumb-marked; and dark clouds were beginning to
lower in the clear azure of his pantaloons. There was, withal, a certain
rakishness of bearing not provided for in the regulations; a little
uncertainty as to legs; a tilt and limp, as it were, in sharp contrast
to the trim soldier who had guarded the commissary chocolates under the
Christmas fir.  Moreover—though his comrades at arms forbore to mention
it, loving him for his gallant service—he was found one night, flat on
his face, under the dinner-table.  Now the Captain had always been
abstemious before.  Liquor of any kind he had shunned as poison, holding
that it spotted his uniform; and once when forced to drink from
Lizbeth’s silver cup, at the end of a dusty march, his lips paled at the
contaminating touch, his red cheeks blanched, and his black mustache, in
a single drink, turned gray.  But here he lay beneath the festive board,
bedraggled, his nose buried in the soft rug, hopelessly
inarticulate—though the last symptom was least to be wondered at, since
he had always been a silent man.

You shook him where he lay.  There was no response.  You dragged him
forth in his shame and set him on his feet again, but he staggered and
fell.  Yet as he lay there in his cups—oh, mystery of discipline!—his
heels were close together, his toes turned out, his musket was at a
carry, and his little fingers were just touching the seams of his
pantaloons.

For the good of the service Mother offered to retire the Captain on half
pay, and give him free lodging on the garret stair, but he scorned the
proposal, and you backed him in his stand.  All his life he had been a
soldier.  Now, with war and rumors of war rife in the land, should he,
Captain Jinks, a private in the Grenadier Guards, lay down his arms for
the piping peace of a garret stair?  No, by gad, sir!  No!  And he
stayed; and, strangest thing of all, he was yet to fight and stand guard
and suffer as he had never done before.

But while the Captain thus sadly went down hill, the Rag Doll retired to
a modest villa in the closet country up-stairs.  It was quiet there, and
she could rest her shattered nerves.  Whether she blamed herself for her
rejected lover’s downfall, or whether it was mere petulance at the
social triumphs of the waxen blonde is a question open to debate.
Sentimentalists will find the former theory more to their fancy, but,
the blonde and her friends told a different tale.  Be that as it may,
the Rag Doll went away.

January passed in barracks; then February and March, with only an
occasional scouting after cattle-thieves and brigand bands.  The Captain
chafed at such inactivity.

"War!  You call this war!" his very bristling manner seemed to say.  "By
gad! sir, when I was in the trenches before..."

It was fine then to see the Captain and Grandfather—both grizzled
veterans with tales to tell—side by side before the library fire.  When
Grandfather told the story of Johnny Reb in the tall grass, the Captain
was visibly moved.

"Jinks," Grandfather would say—"Jinks, you know how it is yourself—when
the bacon’s wormy and the coffee’s thin, and there’s a man with a gun
before you and a girl with a tear behind."

And at the mention of the girl and the tear the Captain would turn away.

Spring came, and with it the marching orders for which you and the
Captain had yearned so long.  There was a stir in the barracks that
morning.  The Captain was drunk again, it is true, but drunk this time
with joy.  He could not march in the ranks—he was too far gone for
that—so you stationed him on a wagon to guard the commissary stores.

A blast from the bugle—Assembly—and you fell into line.

"Forward—_March!_"

And you marched away, your drum beating a double-quick, the Captain
swaying ignominiously on the wagon and hugging his old brown gun.  As
the Guards swung by the reviewing-stand, their arms flashing in the sun,
the Captain did not raise his eyes.  So he never knew that looking down
upon his shame that April day sat his rag lady, with Lizbeth and the
waxen blonde.  Her cheeks were pale, but her eyes were tearless. She did
not utter a sound as her tottering lover passed.  She just leaned far
out over the flag-hung balcony and watched him as he rode away.

It was a hard campaign.  Clover Plain, Wood-pile Mountain, and the
Raspberry Wilderness are names to conjure with. From the back fence to
the front gate, from the beehives to the red geraniums, the whole land
ran with blood.  Brevetted for personal gallantry on the Wood-pile
Heights, you laid aside your drum for epaulets and sword.  The Guards
and the Captain drifted from your ken.  When you last saw him he was
valiantly defending a tulip pass, and defying a regiment of the Black
Ant Brigade to come and take him—by gad! sirs—if they dared.

The war went on.  Days grew into weeks, weeks into months, and the
summer passed.  Search in camps and battlefields revealed no trace of
Captain Jinks. Sitting by the camp-fire on blustering nights, your
thoughts went back to the old comrade of the winter days.

"Poor Captain Jinks!" you sighed.

"Jinks?" asked Grandfather, laying down his book.

"Yes.  He’s lost.  Didn’t you know?"

"Jinks among the missing!" Grandfather cried.  Then he gazed silently
into the fire.

"Poor old Jinks!" he mused.  "He was a brave soldier, Jinks was—a brave
soldier, sir."  He puffed reflectively on his corn-cob pipe.  Presently
he spoke again, more sadly than before:

"But he had one fault, Jinks had—just one, sir.  He was a leetle too
fond o’ his bottle on blowy nights."

November came.  The year and the war were drawing to a close.  Before
Grape Vine Ridge the enemy lay intrenched for a final desperate stand.
To your council of war in the fallen leaves came Grandfather, a scarf
around his throat, its loose ends flapping in the gale.  He leaned on
his cane; you, on your sword.

"Bring up your guns, boy," he cried. "Bring up your heavy guns.  Fling
your cavalry to the left, your infantry to the right.  ’Up, Guards, and
at ’em!’  Cold steel, my boy—as Jinks used to say."

Grandfathers for counsel; little boys for war.  At five that night the
enemy surrendered—horse, foot, and a hundred guns.  Declining the
General’s proffered sword, you rode back across the battle field to your
camp in the fallen leaves. The afternoon was waning.  In the gathering
twilight your horse stumbled on a prostrate form.  You dismounted,
knelt, brushed back the leaves, peered into the dimmed eyes and ashen
face.

"Captain!" you cried.  "Captain Jinks!"  And at your call came Lizbeth,
running, dragging the Rag Doll by her hand. Breathless they knelt beside
him where he lay.

"Oh, it’s Captain Jinks," said Lizbeth, but softly, when she saw.  Prone
on the battle-field lay the wounded Grenadier, his uniform gray with
service in the wind and rain.

"Captain!" you cried again, but he did not hear you.  Then the Rag Doll
bent her face to his, in the twilight, though she could not speak.  A
glimmer of recognition blazed for a moment, but faded in the Captain’s
eyes.

"He’s tired marching, I guess," said Lizbeth.

"’Sh!" you said.  "He’s dying."

You bent lower to feel his fluttering pulse.  You placed your ear to the
cross of honor, rusted, on his breast.  His heart was silent.  And so he
died—on the battlefield, his musket at his side, his heels together, his
little fingers just touching the seams of his pantaloons.




                                *Father*


Every evening at half-past six there was a sound of footsteps on the
front porch. You ran, you and Lizbeth, and by the time you had reached
the door it opened suddenly from without, and you each had a leg of
Father.  Mother was just behind you in the race, and though she did not
shout or dance, or pull his coat or seize his bundles, she won his first
kiss, so that you and Lizbeth came in second after all.

"Hello, Buster!" he would sing out to you, so that you cried, "My name
ain’t Buster—it’s Harry," at which he would be mightily surprised.  But
he always called Lizbeth by her right name.

"Well, Lizbeth," he would say, kneeling, for you had pulled him down to
you, bundles and all, and Lizbeth would cuddle down into his arms and
say:

"_Fa_-ther."

"What?"

"Why, Father, now what do you think? My Sally doll has got the measles
awful."

"No!  You don’t say?"

And "Father!" you would yell into his other ear, for while Lizbeth used
one, you always used the other—using one by two persons at the same time
being strictly forbidden.

"Father."

"Yes, my son.

"The Jones boy was here to-day and—and—and he said—why, now, he said—"

"_Fa_-ther" (it was Lizbeth talking into _her_ ear now), "do you think
my Sally doll—"

It was Mother who rescued Father and his bundles at last and carried you
off to supper, and when your mouth was not too full you finished telling
him what the Jones boy said, and he listened gravely, and prescribed for
the Sally doll.  Though he came home like that every night except Sunday
in all the year, you always had something new to tell him in both ears,
and it was always, to all appearances, the most wonderful thing he had
ever heard.

But now and then there were times when you did not yearn for the sound
of Father’s footsteps on the porch.

"Wait till Father comes home and Mother tells him what a bad, bad boy
you have been!"

"I don’t care," you whispered, defiantly, all to yourself, scowling out
of the window, but "Tick-tock, tick-tock" went the clock on the
mantel-shelf—"Tick-tock, tick-tock"—more loudly, more swiftly than you
had ever heard it tick before.  Still you were brave in the broad light
of day, and if sun and breeze and bird-songs but held out long enough,
Mother might forget.  You flattened your nose against the pane.  There
was a dicky-bird hopping on the apple-boughs outside.  You heard him
twittering.  If you were only a bird, now, instead of a little boy.
Birds were so happy and free.  Nobody ever made them stay in-doors on an
afternoon made for play.  If only a fairy godmother would come in a gold
coach and turn you into a bird.  Then you would fly away, miles and
miles, and when they looked for you, at half-past six, you would be
chirping in some cherry-tree.

"Tick-tock, tick-tock—whir-r-r!  One! Two!  Three!  Four!  Five!" struck
the clock on the mantel-shelf.  The bright day was running away from
you, leaving you far behind to be caught, at half-past six—caught and
...

But Father might not come home to supper to-night!  Once he did not.  At
the thought the sun lay warm upon your cheek, and you rapped on the pane
bravely at the dicky-bird outside.  The bird flew away.

"Tick-tock, tick-tock, tick-tock, tick-tock."

Swiftly the day passed.  Terribly fell the black night, fastening its
shadows on you and all the world.  Grimly Mother passed you, without a
look or word.  She pulled down the window shades.  One by one she
lighted the lamps—the tall piano-lamp with the red globe, the little
green lamp on the library-table, the hanging lamp in the dining-room.
Already the supper-table was set.

The clock struck six!

You watched Mother out of the corners of your eyes.  Had she forgotten?

"Mother," you said, engagingly.  "See me stand on one leg."

"Mother does not care to look at naughty little boys."

"Tick-tock, tick-tock, tick-tock, tick-tock."

You were very little to punish.  Besides, you were not feeling very
well.  It was not your tummy, nor your head, nor yet the pussy-scratch
on your finger.  It was a deeper pain.

"Tick-tock, tick-tock."

If you should die like the Jones boy’s little brother and be put in the
cemetery on the hill, they would be sorry.

"Tick-tock, tick-tock."

Mother went to the window and peered out.

"TICK-TOCK!"

"Whir-r-r-"

And the clock struck half-past six!

Steps sounded upon the porch—Mother was going to the door—it opened!

"Where’s Buster?"

And Mother told!

... And somehow when Father spanked it always seemed as if he were
meddling. He was an outsider all day.  Why, then, did he concern himself
so mightily at night?

After supper Father would sit before the fire with you on one knee and
Lizbeth on the other, while Mother sewed, till by-and-by, just when you
were most comfy and the talk most charming, he would say:

"Well, Father must go now."

"Oh no, Father.  Don’t go yet."

"But Father must.  He must go to Council-meeting."

"What’s a Council-meeting, Father?" you asked, and while he was telling
you he would be putting on his coat.

"Don’t sit up for me," he would tell Mother, and the door would shut at
half-past seven just as it had opened at half-past six, with the same
sound of footsteps on the porch.

"Oh, dear," you would say.  "Father’s always going somewhere.  I guess
he doesn’t like to stay home, Mother."

Then Mother would take you and Lizbeth on her lap.

"Dearies, Father would love to stay at home and play with you and
Mother, but he can’t.  All day long he has to work to take care of us
and buy us bread-and-butter—"

"And chocolate cake, Mother?"

"Yes, and chocolate cake.  And he goes to the Council to help the other
men take care of Ourtown so that the burglars won’t get in or the
street-lamps go out and leave us in the dark."

Your eyes were very round.  That night after you and Lizbeth were in bed
and the lights were out, you thought of the Council and the burglars so
that you could not sleep, and while you lay there thinking, the
wolf-wind began to howl outside. Then suddenly you heard the patter,
patter, patter of its feet upon the roof.  You shuddered and drew the
bedclothes over your head.  What if It got inside?  Could It bite
through the coverlet with its sharp teeth?  Would the Council come and
save you just in time? ... Which would be worse, a wolf or a burglar?  A
wolf, of course, for a burglar might have a little boy of his own
somewhere, in bed, curled up and shivering, with the covers over his
head....  But what if the burglar had no little boy?  Did burglars ever
have little boys? ... How could a man ever be brave enough to be a
burglar, in the dead of night, crawling through windows into pitch-dark
rooms, ... into little boys’ rooms, ... crawling in stealthily with
pistols and false-faces and l-lanterns? ...

But That One was crawling in!  Right into your room, ... right in over
the window-sill, ... like a cat, ... with a false-face on, and pistols,
loaded and pointed right at you....  You tried to call; ... your voice
was dried up in your throat, ... and all the time He was coming nearer,
... nearer, ... nearer...

"Bad dream, was it, little chap?" asked the Council, holding you close
to his coat, all smoky of cigars, and patting your cheek.

[Illustration: "BAD DREAM, WAS IT, LITTLE CHAP?"]

"F-father, where did he go?"

"Who go, my boy?"

"Why, the burglar, Father."

"There wasn’t any burglar, child."

"Why, yes, Father.  I saw him.  Right there.  Coming through the
window."

And it took Father and Mother and two oatmeal crackers and a drink of
water to convince you that it was all a dream. So whether it was in
frightening burglars away, or keeping the street-lamps burning, or
smoking cigars, or soothing a little boy with a nightmare and a fevered
head, the Council was a useful body, and always came just in time.

On week-day mornings Father had gone to work when you came down-stairs,
but on Sunday mornings, when you awoke, a trifle earlier if anything—

"Father!"

Silence.

"Father!" a little louder.

Then a sleepy "Yes."

"We want to get up."

"It isn’t time yet.  You children go to sleep."

You waited.  Then—

"Father, is it time yet?"

"No.  You children lie still."

So you and Lizbeth, wide-awake, whispered together; and then, to while
away the time while Father slept, you played Indian, which required two
little yells from you to begin with (when the Indian You arrived in your
war-paint) and two big yells from Lizbeth to end with (when the Paleface
She was being scalped).

Then Father said it was "no use," and Mother took a hand.  You were
quiet after that, but it was yawny lying there with the sun so high.
You listened.  Not a sound came from Father and Mother’s room.  You rose
cautiously, you and Lizbeth, in your little bare feet.  You stole softly
across the floor.  The door was a crack open, so you peeked in, your
face even with the knob and Lizbeth’s just below.  And then, at one and
the same instant, you both said "Boo!" and grinned; and the harder you
grinned the harder Father tried not to laugh, which was a sign that you
could scramble into bed with him, you on one side and Lizbeth on the
other, cuddling down close while Mother went to see about breakfast.

It was very strange, but while it had been so hard to drowse in your own
bed, the moment you were in Father’s you did not want to get up at all.
Indeed, it was Father who wanted to get up first, and it was you who
cried that it was not time.

Week-days were always best for most things, but for two reasons Sunday
was the best day of all.  One reason was Sunday dinner.  The other was
Father.  On Sunday the dinner-table was always whitest with clean linen
and brightest with silver and blue china and fullest of good things to
eat, and sometimes Company came and brought their children with them.
On Sunday, too, there was no store to keep, and Father could stay at
home all day.

He came down to breakfast in slippers and a beautiful, wide jacket,
which was brown to match the coffee he always took three cups of, and
the cigar which he smoked afterwards in a big chair with his feet thrust
out on a little one.  While he smoked he would read the paper, and
sometimes he would laugh and read it out loud to Mother; and sometimes
he would say, "That’s so," and lay down his paper and talk to Mother
like the minister’s sermon.  And once he talked so loudly that he said
"Damn."  Mother looked at you, for you were listening, and sent you for
her work-basket up-stairs. After that, when you talked loudest to
Lizbeth or the Jones boy, you said "Damn," too, like Father, till Mother
overheard you and explained that only fathers and grandfathers and bad
little boys ever said such things.  It wasn’t a pretty word, she said,
for nice little boys like you.

"But, Mother, if the bad little boys say it, why do the good fathers say
it—hm?"

Mother explained that, too.  Little boys should mind their mothers, she
said.

It was easy enough not to say the word when you talked softly, but when
you talked loudest it was hard to remember what Mother said.  For when
you talked softly, somehow, you always remembered Mother, and when you
talked loudly it was Father you remembered best.

The sun rose high and warm.  It was a long time after breakfast.
Fragrance came from the kitchen to where you sat in the library, all
dressed-up, looking at picture-books and waiting for dinner, and
wondering if there would be pie.  Father was all dressed-up, too, and
while he read silently, you and Lizbeth felt his cheeks softly with your
finger-tips.  Where the prickers had been at breakfast-time it was as
smooth as velvet now.  Father’s collar was as white as snow.  In place
of his jacket he wore his long, black Sunday coat, and in his shoes you
could almost see your face.

"Father’s beautifulest on Sunday," Lizbeth said.

"So am I," you said, proudly, looking down your blouse and trousers to
the shine of your Sunday shoes.

"So are you, too," you added kindly to Lizbeth, who was all in white and
curls.

Then you drew a little chair beside Father’s and sat, quiet and very
straight, with your legs crossed carelessly like his and an open book
like his in your lap. And when Father changed his legs, you changed your
legs, too.  Lizbeth looked at you two awhile awesomely.  Then she
brought her little red chair and sat beside you with the Aladdin book on
her lap, but she did not cross her legs.  And so you sat there, all
three, clean and dressed-up and beautiful, by the bay-window, while the
sun lay warm and golden on the library rug, and sweeter and sweeter grew
the kitchen smells.

Then dinner came, and the last of it was best because it was sweetest,
and if Company were not there you cried:

"It’s going to be pie to-day, isn’t it, Mother?"

But Mother would only smile mysteriously while the roast was carried
away.  Then Lizbeth guessed.

"It’s pudding," she said.

"No, pie," you cried again, "’cause yesterday was pudding."

"Now, Father, you guess," said Lizbeth.

"I guess?"

"Yes, Father."

And at that Father would knit his brows and put one finger to one side
of his nose, so that he could think the harder, and by-and-by he would
say:

"I know.  I’ll bet it’s custard."

"Oh _no_, Father," you broke in, for you liked pie best, and even to
admit the possibility of custard, aloud, might make it come true.

"Then it’s lemon jelly with cream," said Father, trying another finger
to his nose and pondering deeply.

"Oh, you only have one guess," cried you and Lizbeth together, and
Father, cornered, stuck to the jelly and cream.

"Oh, dear," Lizbeth said, "I don’t see what good it does to brush off
the crumbs in the middle of dinner."

Silence fell upon the table, you and Lizbeth holding Father’s
outstretched hands. Your eyes were wide, the better to see. Your lips
were parted, the better, doubtless, to hear.  Only Mother was serene,
for only Mother knew.  And then through the stillness came the sound of
rattling plates.

"Pie," you whispered.

"Pudding," whispered Lizbeth.

"Jelly," whispered Father, hoarsely.

The door swung open.  You rose in your seats, you and Lizbeth and
Father, craning your necks to see, and, seeing—

"_Pie!_" you cried, triumphantly.

"Ah!" said Father, lifting his pie-crust gayly with the tip of his fork.

"Apples," you said, peeping under your crust.

"Apples, my son?  Apples?  Why, no. Bless my soul!  As I live, this is a
robber’s cave filled with sacks of gold."

"Oh, _Father_!" you cried, incredulous, not knowing how to take him yet;
but you peeped again, and under your pie-crust it was like a cave, and
the little slices of juicy apple lay there like sacks of gold.

"And see!" said Father, pointing with his fork, "there is the entrance
to the cave, and when the policemen chased the robbers—pop! they went,
right into their hole, like rabbits."

And sure enough, in the upper crusts were the little cuts through which
the robbers popped.  Your eyes widened.

"And oh, Father," you said, "the smoke can come out through the little
holes when the robbers build their fire."

"Aha!" cried Father, fiercely.  "I’m the policeman breaking into the
cave while the robbers are away," and he took a bite.

"And I’m another policeman," you cried, catching the spirit of the thing
and taking a bigger bite than Father’s.

"And I’m a policeman’s wife coming along, too," said Lizbeth, helping
herself, so that Mother said:

"John, John, how am I ever going to teach these children table manners
when—"

"But see, Mother, see!" Father explained, taking another bite, and
ignoring Mother’s eyes.  "If we don’t get the gold away the robbers will
come back and—"

"Kill us!" you broke in.

"Yes, kill us, Mother!" shouted Father, balancing another sack of gold
on the end of his fork.  "Yes, yes, Mother, don’t you see?"

"I see," said Mother, just between laugh and frown, and when the robbers
came back around the coffee-pot hill, lo! there was no gold or cave
awaiting them—only three plates scraped clean, and two jubilant
policemen and a policeman’s wife, full of gold.

And when Father was Father again, leaning on the back of Mother’s chair,
she said to him, "You’re nothing but a great big boy," so that Father
chuckled, his cheek against hers and his eyes shining.  That was the way
with Father.  Six days he found quite long enough to be a man; so on
Sunday he became a boy.

The gate clicked behind you, Father in the middle and you and Lizbeth
holding each a hand, and keeping step with him when you could, running a
little now and then to catch up again.  Your steps were always longest
on Sunday when you walked with Father, and even Lizbeth knew you then
for a little man, and peeked around Father’s legs to see you as you
strode along.  Father was proud of you, too, though he did not tell you.
He just told other people when he thought you could not hear.

"Little pitchers have big ears," Mother would warn him then, but you
heard quite plainly out of one ear, and it was small at that.

Everybody looked as you three went down the shady street together, and
the nice young ladies gave you smiles and the nice old ladies gave you
flowers, handing them out to you over their garden walls.

"Thank you.  My name is Harry," you said.

"And I’m Lizbeth," said little sister. And as you passed on your stride
grew longer and your voice sank bigger and deeper in your throat, like
Father’s.

But it wasn’t the town you liked best to walk in with Father in the
long, warm Sunday afternoons.  It was the river-side, where the willows
drooped over the running waters, and the grass was deepest and greenest
and waved in the sun.  On the meadow-bank at the water’s silver edge you
sat down together.

"Who can hear the most?" asked Father.

You listened.

"I hear the river running over the log," you said, softly.

"And the birds," whispered Lizbeth.

"And the wind in the willows," said Father.

"And the cow-bells tinkling way, way off," you added, breathlessly.

"Oh, and I hear the grass whispering," said Lizbeth.

"And oh, a bee," you cried.

"And something else," said Father.

You held your breath and listened. From the distant village the wind
blew you faintly the sound of—

"Church-bells," cried you and Lizbeth together.

You fell to playing in the long grass. Lizbeth gathered daisies for
Mother.  You lay with your face just over the river-bank, humming a
little song and gazing down into the mirror of the waters.  You wondered
how it would feel to be a little boy-fish, darting in and out among the
river grasses.

By-and-by you went back to Father and sat beside him with your cheek
against his arm.

"Father."

"Yes."

"What do you think when you don’t say anything, but just look?"

[Illustration: "’FATHER, WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU DON’T SAY ANYTHING,
BUT JUST LOOK?’"]

"When I just look?"

"Yes.  Do you think what I do?"

"Well, what do you think?"

"Why, I think I’d like to be a big man like you and wear a long coat,
and take my little boy and girl out walking.  Did you think that,
Father?"

"No.  I was thinking how nice it would be just to be a little boy again
like you and go out walking by the river with my father."

"Oh, Father, how funny!  I wanted to be you and you wanted to be me.  I
guess people always want to be somebody else when they just look and
don’t say anything."

"What makes you think that, my boy?"

"Well, there’s Grandmother.  _She_ sits by the window all day long and
just looks and looks, and wishes she was an angel with Grandfather up in
the sky."

"And Lizbeth?"

"Oh, Lizbeth wishes she was Mother."

"And how about Mother?  Does she wish she were somebody else, do you
think?"

"Oh no, Father, _she_ doesn’t, ’cause then she wouldn’t have me and
Lizbeth. Besides, she don’t have time to just sit and look, Mother
don’t."

Your eyes were big and shining.  Father just looked and looked a long
time.

"And what do you think _now_, Father?"

"I was thinking of Mother waiting for you and Lizbeth and Father, and
wondering why we don’t come home."

And almost always after that, when you went out walking with Father,
Sundays, Mother went with you.  It seemed strange at first, but fine, to
have her sit with you on the river-bank and just look and look and look,
smiling but never saying a word; and though you asked her many times
what she thought about as she sat there dreaming, she was never once
caught wishing that she were anybody but her own self.  She was happy,
she told you; but while it was you she told, she would be looking at
Father.

Oh, it was golden in the morning glow, when you were a little boy.  But
clouds skurried across the sky—black clouds, storm clouds—casting their
chill and shadow for a while over all Our Yard, darkening Our House, so
that a little boy playing on the hearth-rug left his toy soldier
prostrate there to wander, wondering, from room to room.

"Mother, why doesn’t Father play with us like he used to?"

"Mother, why do you sew and sew and sew all the time?  Hm, Mother?"

All through the long evenings till bed-time came, and long afterwards,
Father and Mother talked low together before the fire.  The murmur of
their voices downstairs was the last thing you heard before you fell
asleep.  It sounded like the brook in the meadow where the little green
frogs lived, hopping through water-rings.

Of those secret conferences by the fire you could make nothing at all.
Mother stopped you whenever you drew near.

"Run away, dear, and play."

You frowned and sidled off as far as the door, lingering wistfully.

"Father, the Jones boy made fun of me to-day.  He called me
Patchy-pants."

"Never mind what the Jones boy says," Mother broke in; but Father said,
"He ought to have a new pair, Mother."  You brightened at that.

"The Jones boy’s got awful nice pants," you said; "all striped like a
zebra."

Father smiled a little at that.  Mother looked down at her sewing,
saying never a word.  That night you dreamed you had new pants, all
spotted like a leopard, and you were proud, for every one knows that a
leopard could whip a zebra, once he jumped upon his back.

Leaning on the garden fence, the Jones boy watched you as you sprinkled
the geraniums with your little green watering-can.

"Where’d you get it?" he asked.

"Down at my father’s store," you replied, loftily, for the Jones boy had
no watering-can.

"Your father hasn’t got a store any more."

"He has, too," you replied.

"He hasn’t, either, ’cause my pa says he hasn’t."

"I don’t care what your pa says.  My father has, too, got a store."

"He hasn’t."

"He has."

"He hasn’t, either."

"He has, teether."

"I say he hasn’t."

"And I say he has," you screamed, and threw the watering-can straight at
the Jones boy.  It struck the fence and the water splashed all over him
so that he retreated to the road.  There in a rage he hurled stones at
you.

"Your—father—hasn’t—got—any— store—any—more—old—Patchy-pants—
old—Patchy-pants—old—"

And then suddenly the Jones boy fled, and when you looked around there
was Father standing behind you by the geraniums.

"Never mind what the Jones boy says," he told you, and he was not angry
with you for throwing the watering-can.  The little green spout of it
was broken when you picked it up, but Father said he would buy you a new
one.

"To-morrow, Father?"

"No, not to-morrow—some day."

You and Lizbeth, tumbling down-stairs to breakfast, found Father sitting
before the fire.

"Father!" you cried, astonished, for it was not Sunday, and though you
ran to him he did not hear you till you pounced upon him in his chair.

"Oh, Father," you said, joyfully, "are you going to stay home and play
with us all day?"

"_Fa_-ther!" cried Lizbeth.  "Will you play house with us?"

"Oh no, Father.  Play _store_ with us," you cried.

"Don’t bother Father," Mother said, but Father just held you both in his
arms and would not let you go.

"No—let them stay," he said, and Mother slipped away.

"Mother’s got an awful cold," said Lizbeth.  "Her eyes—"

"So has Father; only Father’s cold is in his voice," you said.

You scarcely waited to eat your breakfast before you were back again to
Father by the fire, telling him of the beautiful games just three could
play.  But while you were telling him the door-bell rang, and there were
two men with books under their arms, come to see Father.  They stayed
with him all day long—you could hear them muttering in the library—and
all day you looked wistfully at the closed door, lingering there lest
Father should come out to play and find you gone.

He did not come out till dinner-time. After dinner he walked in the
garden alone. He held a cigar in his clinched teeth.

"Why don’t you smoke the cigar, Father?"

He did not hear you.  He just walked up and down, up and down, with his
eyes on the ground and his hands thrust hard into the pockets of his
coat.

Mother watched him for a moment through the window.  Then with her own
hands she built a fire in the grate, for the night was chill.  Before it
she drew an easy-chair, and put Father’s smoking-jacket on the back of
it and set his slippers to warm against the fender.  On a reading-table
near by she laid the little blue china ash-tray you had given Father for
Christmas, and beside it a box of matches ready for his hand.  Then she
called him in.

He came and sat there before the fire, saying nothing, but looking into
the flames—looking, looking, till your mind ran back to a Sunday
afternoon in summer by the river-side.

"I know what you are thinking, Father."

Slowly he turned his head to you, so that you knew he was listening
though he did not speak.

"You’re thinking how nice it would be, Father, if you were a little boy
like me."

He made no answer.  Mother came and sat on one of the arms of his chair,
her cheek against his hair.  Lizbeth undressed her dolls for the night,
crooning a lullaby. One by one you dropped your marbles into their
little box.  Then you rose and sat like Mother on an arm of Father’s
chair.  For a while you dreamed there, drowsy, in the glow.

"Mother," you said, softly.

[Illustration: "’MOTHER, YOU SAID, SOFTLY’"]

"Yes," she whispered back to you.

"Mother, isn’t it _fine_?" you said.

"Fine, dearie?"

"Yes, Mother, everything ... ’specially—"

"Yes, sweetheart?"

"—’specially just having Father."

Father gave a little jump; seized you; crushed you in his arms, stars
shining in his brimming eyes.

"Little chap—little chap," he cried, but could get no further, till
by-and-by—

"Mother," he said—and his voice was clear and strong—"Mother, with a
little chap like that and two girls like you and Lizbeth—"

His voice caught, but he shook it free again.

"—_any_ man could begin—all over again—and _win_," he said.




                                *Mother*


A," you said.

"And what’s that?"

"B."

"And that?"

You sat on Mother’s lap.  The wolf-wind howled at the door, and you
shuddered, cuddling down in Mother’s arms and the glow.  The wilder the
wolf-wind howled, the softer was the lamp-light, the redder were the
apples on the table, the warmer was the fire.

On your knees lay the picture-book with its sad, sad little tale.
Mother read it to you—she had read it fifty times before—her face grave,
her voice low and tragic, while you listened with bated breath:

    "Who killed Cock Robin?
    ’I,’ said the Sparrow,
    ’With my bow and arrow—
    I killed Cock Robin.’"


[Illustration: "THE PICTURE-BOOK"]

It was the first murder you had ever heard about.  You saw it all, the
hideous spectacle—a beautiful, warm, red breast pierced by that fatal
dart—a poor, soft little birdie, dead, by an assassin’s hand. A lump
rose in your throat.  A tear rose in your eye—two tears, three tears.
They rolled down your cheek.  They dropped, hot and sad, on the fish
with his little dish, on the owl with his spade and trowel, on the rook
with his little book.

"P-poor Cock R-robin!"

"There, there, dear.  Don’t cry."

"But, M-mother—the Sparrow—he k-killed him."

Alas, yes!  The Sparrow had killed him, for the book said so, but had
you heard?

"N-no, w-what?"

The book, it seems, like other books, had told but half the story.
Mother knew the other half.  Cock Robin was murdered, murdered in cold
blood, it was true, but—O merciful, death-winged arrow!—he had gone
where the good birds go.  And there—O joy!—he had met his robin wife and
his little robin boy, who had gone before.

"And I expect they are all there now, dear," she told you, kissing your
tear-stained cheek, "the happiest robins that ever were."

Dry and wide were your eyes.  In the place where the good birds go, you
saw Cock Robin.  His eyes and his fat, red breast were bright again.  He
chirped. He sang.  He hopped from bough to bough, with his robin wife
and his little robin boy.  For in the mending of little stories or the
mending of little hearts, like the mending of little stockings, Mother
was wonderful.

In those times there were knees to your stockings, knees with holes in
them at the end of the day, with the soiled skin showing through.

"Just look!" Mother would cry.  "Just look there!  And I’d only just
mended them."

"Well, you see, Mother, when you play Black Bear—"

"I see," she said, and before you went to bed you would be sitting on
the edge of a tub, paddling your feet in the water.

[Illustration: "BEFORE YOU WENT TO BED"]

"You dirty boy," she would be saying, scrubbing at the scratched, black
knees; but when you were shining again she would be saying—

"You darling!"

And though your stockings were whole in the clean of morning when you
scampered out into the sun, in the dirt of night when you scampered back
again—O skein, where is thy yarn?  O darning-needle, where is thy
victory?

Summer mornings, in the arbor-seat of the garden, Mother would be
sewing, her lap brimming, her work-basket at her feet, the sun falling
golden through the trellised green.  In the nap of the afternoon, when
even the birds drowsed and the winds slept, she would be sewing, ever
sewing.  And when night fell and the dishes were put away, she would be
sewing still, in the lamp-light’s yellow glow.

"Mother, why do you sew and sew?"

"To make my little boy blue sailor suits and my little girl white
frocks, and to stop the holes."

"Do you like to sew, Mother?"

"I don’t mind it."

"But doesn’t it make you tired, Mother?"

"Oh, now and then."

"But I should think you’d rest sometimes, Mother."

"Should you, dear?"

"Yes, I would.  Oh, I’d sew a _little_—just enough—and then I’d play."

"But Mother does sew _just enough_, and it takes all day, my dear.  What
do you say to that?"

You pondered.

"Well," you said, and stopped.

"Well?" she said, and laughed.  Then you laughed, too.

"A mother," you told them afterwards, "is a person what takes care of
you, and loves you, and sews and sews—just enough—all day."

Since mothers take care of little boys, they told you, little boys
should take care of their mothers, too.  So right in front of her you
stood, bravely, your fists clinched, your lips trembling, your eyes
flashing with rage and tears.

"You sha’n’t touch my mother!"

But Mother’s arms stole swiftly around you, pinning your own to your
side.

"Father was only fooling, dear," she said, kneeling behind you and
folding you to her breast.  "See, he’s laughing at us."

"Why, little chap," he said, "Father was only playing."

Mother wiped away your tears, smiling at them, but proudly.  You looked
doubtfully at Father, who held out his arms to you; then slowly you went
to him, urged by Mother’s hand.

"You must always take care of Mother like that," he said, "and never let
any one hurt her, or bother her, when Father’s away."

"Mother’s little knight," she said, kissing your brow.  And ever
afterwards she was safe when you were near.

"Oh, that Mrs. Waddles.  I wish she wouldn’t bother me."

Under her breath Mother said it, but you heard, and you hated Mrs.
Waddles with all your soul, and her day of reckoning came.  Mother was
in the garden and did not hear.  You answered the knock yourself.

"Little darling, how—"

"You can’t see my mother to-day," you said, stiffly.

"That’s very strange," said Mrs. Waddles, with a forward step.

"No," you said, a little louder, throwing yourself into the breach and
holding the door-knob with all your might.  "No! You mustn’t come in!"

"You impertinent little child!" cried Mrs. Waddles, threateningly, but
you faced her down, raising your voice again:

"You can’t see my mother any more," you repeated, firmly.

"And why not, I’d like to know?" demanded the old lady, swelling
visibly. "Why not, I’d like to know?"

"’Cause I’m to take care of my mother when my father’s away, and he said
not to let anybody bother her that she don’t want to see."

It was a long explanation and took all your breath.

"Oh, is _that_ it?" cackled Mrs. Waddles, with withering scorn.  "And
how do you _know_ that your mother doesn’t want to see me—_hey_?"

"’Cause—she—said—so!"

You separated your words like the ABC book, that Mrs. Waddles might
understand. It was a master-stroke.  Gasping, her face on fire,
gathering her skirts together with hands that trembled in their black
silk mitts, Mrs. Waddles turned and swept away.

"I never!" she managed to utter as she slammed the gate.

You shut the door softly, the battle won, and went back to the garden.

"Well, _that’s_ over," you said, with a sigh, as Mother herself would
have said it.

"What’s over, dear?"

"Mrs. Waddles," you replied.

So you took care of Mother so well that she loved you more and more as
the days of your knighthood passed; and she took care of you so well
that your cheeks grew rosier and your eyes brighter and your legs
stronger, and you loved her more and more with the days of her
motherhood.

Even being sick was fine in those days, for she brought you little
things in bowls with big spoons in them, and you ate till you wanted
more—a sign that you would not die.  And so you lay in the soft of the
pillows, with the patchwork coverlet that Mother made with her own
hands. There was the white silk triangle from her wedding-gown, and a
blue one from a sash that was her Sunday best, long ago, when she was a
little girl.  There was a soft-gray piece from a dress of Grandmother’s,
and a bright-pink one that was once Lizbeth’s, and a striped one, blue
and yellow, that was once Father’s necktie in the gay plumage of his
youth.

As you lay there, sick and drowsy, the bridal triangle turned to snow,
cold and white and pure, and you heard sleighbells and saw the Christmas
cards with the little church in the corner, its steeple icy, but its
windows warm and red with the Christmas glow.  That was the white
triangle.  But the blue one, next, was sky, and when you saw it you
thought of birds and stars and May; and if it so happened that your eyes
turned to the gray piece that was Grandmother’s, and the sky that was
blue darkened and the rain fell, you had only to look at the pink piece
that was Lizbeth’s, or the blue and yellow that was Father’s, to find
the flowers and the sun again.  Then the colors blended.  Dandelions
jingled, sleigh-bells and violets blossomed in the snow, and you
slept—the sleep that makes little boys well.

The bees and the wind were humming in the cherry-trees, for it was May.
You were all alone, you and Mother, in the garden, where the white
petals were falling, silently, like snow-flakes, and the birds were
singing in the morning glow.

Your feet scampered down the paths. Your curls bobbed among the budding
shrubs and vines.  You leaped.  You laughed.  You sang.  In your wide
eyes blue of the great sky, green of the grasses. On your flushed cheeks
sunshine and breeze.  In your beating heart childhood and spring—a
childhood too big, a spring too wonderful, for the smallness of one
little, brimming boy.

"Look, Mother!  See me jump."

"My!" she said.

"And see me almost stand on my head."

"Wonderful!"

"I know what I’ll be when I grow to be a man, Mother."

"What will you be?"

"A circus-rider."

"Gracious!" said she.

"On a big, white horse, Mother."

"Dear me!"

"And we’ll jump ’way over the moon, Mother."

"The moon?"

"Yes, the moon.  See!"

Then you jumped over the rake-handle. You were practising for the moon,
you said.

"But maybe I _won’t_ be a circus-rider, Mother, after all."

"Maybe not," said she.

"Maybe I’ll be President, like George Washington.  Father said I could.
Could I, Mother?"

"Yes—you might—some day."

"But the Jones boy couldn’t, Mother."

"Why couldn’t the Jones boy?"

"Because he swears and tells lies.  _I_ don’t.  And George Washington
didn’t, Mother.  I guess I won’t be a circus-rider, after all."

"Oh, I’m glad of that, dear."

"No, I guess I’ll keep right on, Mother—as long as I’ve started—and just
be President."

"Oh, that will be fine," said she.  She was sewing in the arbor, her lap
filled with linen, her work-basket at her feet.

"Mother."

"Yes."

"I think I’d like to sing a song now."

Straight and proper you stood in the little path, your heels together,
your hands at your side, and so you sang to her the song of the little
duck:

    "’Quack, quack,’ said the Duck,
    ’Quack, quack.’
    ’Quack, quack,’ said—"


You stopped.

"Try it a little lower, dear."

    "’Quack, quack,’ said—"


"No, that’s _too_ low," you said.  You tried again and started right
that time and sang it through, the song of the little duck who

    "’... wouldn’t be a girl,
    With only a curl,
    I wouldn’t be a girl, would you?’"


"Oh, it’s beautiful," Mother said.

"Now it’s your turn, Mother, to tell a story."

"A story?"

"Yes.  About the violets."

"The violets?" she said, poising her needle, musingly.  "The blue, blue
violets—"

"As blue as the sky, Mother," you said, softly, for it is always in the
hush of the garden that the stories grow.

"As blue as the sky," she said.  "Ah, yes.  Well, once there wasn’t a
violet in the whole world."

"Nor a single star," you said, awesomely, helping her.  And as you sat
there listening the world grew wider and wider—for when you are a little
boy the world is always just as wide as your eyes.

"Not a violet or a single star in the whole world," Mother went on.
"And what do you think?  They just took little bits of the blue sky and
sprinkled them all over the green world, and they were the first
violets."

"And the stars, Mother?"

"Why, don’t you see?  The stars are the little holes they left in the
blue sky, with the light of heaven shining through."

"Oh!" you said, softly.  "Oh, Mother!"

And then, in the hush of the garden, you looked at her, and lo! her eyes
were blue like the violets, and bright like the stars, for the light of
heaven was shining through.

She was the most wonderful person in the whole world—who never did
anything wrong, who knew everything, even who God was, watching, night
and day, over little boys.  Even the hairs of your head were numbered,
she told you, and not a little bird died but He knew.

"And did He know when Cock Robin died, Mother?"

"Yes.  He knew."

"And when I hurt my finger, Mother? Did He know then?"

"Yes, He knows everything."

"And was He sorry, Mother, when I hurt my finger?"

"Very sorry, dear."

"Then why did He _let_ me hurt my finger—why?"

For a moment she did not speak.

"Dearie," she said at last, "I don’t know.  There are many things that
nobody knows but God."

Hushed and wondering you sat in Mother’s lap, for His eye was upon you.
Somewhere up in the sky, above the clouds, you knew He was sitting, on a
great, bright throne, with a gold crown upon His head and a sceptre in
His hand—King of Kings and Lord of All.  Down below Him on the green
earth little birds were falling, little boys were hurting their fingers
and crying in their Mothers’ arms, and He saw them all, every one,
little birds and little boys, but did not help them. You crept closer to
Mother’s bosom, flinging your arms about her neck.

"Don’t let Him get me, Mother!"

"Why, darling, He loves you."

"Oh no, Mother—not like you do; not like you."

The bees and the wind were in the apple trees, for it was May.  You were
all alone, you and Mother, in the garden, where the white petals were
falling, like snowflakes, silently.  In the swing Grandfather built for
you, you sat swaying, to and fro, in the shadows; and the shadows
swayed, to and fro, in the gale; and to and fro your thoughts swayed in
your dreaming.

The wind sang in the apple-boughs, the flowering branches filled and
bent, and all about you were the tossing, shimmering grasses, and all
above you birds singing and flitting in the sky.  And so you swayed, to
and fro, till you were a sailor, in a blue suit, sailing the blue sea.

The wind sang in the rigging.  The white sails filled and bent.  Your
ship scudded through the tossing, shimmering foam.  Gulls screamed and
circled in the sky, ... and so you sailed and sailed with the sea-breeze
in your curls...

The ship anchored.

The swing stopped.

You were only a little boy.

"Mother," you said, softly, for your voice was drowsy with your dream.

She did not hear you.  She sat there in the arbor-seat, smiling at you,
her hands idle, her sewing slipping from her knees. You did not know it
then, but you do now—that to see the most beautiful woman in the whole
world you must be her little boy.

There in her garden, in her lap, with her arms around you and her cheeks
between your hands, you gazed, wondering, into the blue fondness of her
eyes.  You saw her lips, forever smiling at you, forever seeking your
own.  You heard her voice, sweet with love-words—

"My dearest."

"Yes."

"My darling."

"Yes."

"My own dear little boy."

And then her arms crushing you to her breast; and then her lips; and
then her voice again—

"Once in this very garden, in this very seat, Mother sat dreaming of
you."

"Of me, Mother?"

"Of you.  Here in the garden, with that very bush there red with
blossoms, and the birds singing in these very trees. She dreamed that
you were a little baby—a little baby, warm and soft in her arms—and
while the wind sang to the flowers Mother sang you a lullaby, and you
stretched out your hands to her and smiled; and then—ah, darling!"

"But it was a _dream_, Mother."

"It was only a dream—yes—but it came true.  It came true on a night in
June—the First of June, it was—"

"_My_ birthday, Mother!"

"Your birthday, dear."

"Oh, Mother," you said, breathlessly—"what a beautiful dream!"




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